Oh no - not another one!

Another Mercury retrograde is coming, as if we have not had enough upheavals and turmoil in our lives.

As these energies start tearing us apart (yet again!) be prepared to let go of another batch of outdated energetic support systems. These support systems are like old friends who depart for greener pastures – leaving us reeling with a sense of loss and finding no good reason why they should have departed at all.

Mercury rules communications, and when it withdraws that energy, we can expect mayhem. Computers crash for no obvious reason, agreements fail, we have fall-out’s with friends and partners, and our world just spins out of (apparent) control.

But there is another side to this as well, particularly with the retrograde involving Virgo, so that is really what I want to talk about. Many of us feel cheated and angry when we loose something close to our hearts – it can be friendships, possessions, even our entire database of work. We go into mourning as a result of this loss, and we may be severely traumatized.

Yet – we forget that life is not an unplanned journey. Though our own mechanisms of creation and co-creation, we actually plan these losses on an unconscious level. The human being is a quantum biological mechanism – implying that it is not ultimately predictable. We live in a world of probabilities, not absolute certainty. As we have seen in the Norway tragedy, that peaceful country is in a state of shock, as the “unthinkable” happened.

Ever asked yourself why these darned things are happening? Why am I losing all my data? Why is my best friend picking a fight and now leaving my energetic space forever?

It is actually very simple, seen against the backdrop of the new cosmic energies.

Being in an energy bubble, which does not support our growth any more, is like a child about to be born struggling to get out of the womb. The fact is, that once we start resonating on levels (frequencies), which is higher than what our current energetic support systems can offer – these support systems evaporate, as our “new” energy does not support them anymore. It is a process of evolution.

The ego mind, off course, does not take kindly to this. The inner loss we experience is in direct contrast for it’s need be in control in order to provide us with a balanced life. You see – the ego only wants what is best for us, according to it’s own rationalization. We are really not consciously involved in the process, and therefore when we hit a low ebb we suddenly find ourselves floundering.

The truth is – not even the ego has any control over this process. As we start to vibrate at higher levels of consciousness (or awareness if you prefer), anything that vibrates at a lower level of consciousness cannot be supported anymore. Thus, our previous comfort zones start crumbling away like the Roman Empire. Suddenly our relationships do not work anymore, the systems that provided for our financial support does not work anymore, we cannot get along with our colleagues anymore. In short, our new awareness becomes in conflict with our current support systems, and those mechanisms that regulate same.

As we go through the emotions of self-doubt, insecurity, anger and guilt, we start questioning our own sanity, decisions and life paths. I am always asked “what am I doing wrong, why are there all these walls appearing to block my efforts?”

Actually, we are doing nothing wrong at all. We are evolving. As we embrace the new energies that are around us, we are shifting into a new space of co-creation, community living, support of others and selfless altruism. Much has been written about altruism, and the conclusion is always that there must be something in it for me as well, even though that may be an unconscious thought process. In other words – we do not do anything for nothing.

Well, I have some rather bad and good news. As we move from micro serving to macro serving, we are going to face the wrath of the collective energy grid of greed and a self-serving humanity. We are starting to live from the heart, and that can only spell trouble for us, as it is in direct conflict with “that which is”.

Living from the heart compels us to question our very basis for existence. We are suddenly unable to reconcile with the happenings on the outside of our inner self, and feel deeply uncomfortable with the status quo. How we relate to the outside world, has now become a very nasty experience.

I can assure you that you are not alone – many are feeling these urges not to conform anymore, and is questioning the very basis of “business as usual” on this planet. And as many more wake up to the fact that “something is off” the energies that support the old systems are dissipating so fast that every single human being who is part of this reality is affected. We can just watch the news channels and see the mayhem that is so profoundly prolific.

Collective support systems are our new reality – and this coming Mercury retrograde is going to give it another push forward – meaning that everything that we still need to let go of, will be ripped from our realities like a car that is stolen – never to be recovered again. It can mean many things for many of us, but I can also assure you that it is a necessary stage in our spiritual evolution, as we prepare for the 11.11.11 when we cross the threshold into the Aquarian age.

That which no longer supports our new being-ness must go. New energetic support systems will arrive timeously to carry us forward on this new wave of galactic consciousness. The ascension is already happening – it is not going to wait for December 2012 to manifest, as we are creating the energy that supports it ourselves. We are co-creating, and that is the miracle of our spiritual evolution, as we position ourselves to become true galactic beings, homo galacticus, to coin a phrase. We are becoming humanity.

So – live from the heart, practice the heart virtues, foster the community in which you function, and so help create the new support systems that will carry us on the wings of Love into the new Aquarian age. The old systems are collapsing, held together with weary band-aids. We have already reached the point of no return, and the scales are tipping.

Embrace and accept the release as it comes, and forgive yourself and others and bear no malice or resentment – it really serves no purpose other than making live unbearable for all concerned.

We can enter this new age gracefully – or we can flounder in the wings. The play is finished. Time for a new one, so take the steps to the backstage door, walk out and don’t ever look back again.

It is to no avail.

Much Love to all.

The Virtues of the Heart

“You are such a collection of different personalities; it is no wonder that at times your confrontations end with a falling out. Clearly if you cannot get on together it is sometimes better that you stay clear of each other. However, as you work towards lifting yourself up into the Light, you might consider whether you should re-trace your footsteps and look to repair the damage that has been done. It would be better handled now, as there are not many issues that cannot be sorted out if both parties desire to overcome their differences. You cannot fully progress until you do, and in doing so it would place you another step nearer to being able to express Unconditional Love. When you can achieve success within family circles and with friends, there is no reason why you should not extend that to all souls”.

And so says SaLuSa. Or, if you prefer to speak in Nietzschian terms – “Also spracht Zaratustra”, which deals with many issues of morality and emotional intelligence, most notably the concept of recurrence of the same events, in other words, hitting our heads against the same pillar every time. I am drawing the comparison here – since SaLuSa has a tendency to write in somewhat biblical terms.

What SaLuSa says here is very timely, as human beings tend to carry resentment, anger and malice around for eternity, simply because of a perceived injustice, fight or disagreement. Fear of confrontation after the confrontation as well as guilt, usually prohibits us from re-visiting the event, which caused the mayhem, and declare peace, or at least talk about our feelings and resultant reactions. We prefer to project, rather, our anger and guilt and cause further problems.

It is not a secret that we always expect other people to react the way we do – or base their reactions and rationale on our terms of reference – for that is what we see – not the other point of view. Even when we are right, and the other individual acted inappropriately, we should see their point of view and treat it as an empathetic response.

But do we? No. We keep on doggedly hanging onto our own belief systems and ignore the prompts of spirit to move towards wisdom through the mechanisms of intuition and applied emotional intelligence, which simply means understanding.

Understanding is one of the heart virtues – the heart virtues being the philosophical mechanism with which we apply the energy of Love. Applying the energy of Love means that we live or apply the following empathetic mechanisms:

• Appreciation
• Humility
• Valor
• Compassion
• Understanding, and
• Forgiveness.

These virtues are the essence of Love, and they are also the essence of Universal and Spiritual Laws. The problem is – as human beings, it is very difficult for us to live according to these virtues, simply because we are human. As my mother said the other day (where did that come from?) “It is easy to be human, but it is not easy to be a human being”. As we know – human being or Homo sapiens means “wise man”, or “knowing man” (why did they gender discriminate?) meaning that we can reason, we can speak, we can display emotion, and we can nurture and love on many levels.

We can also display hate, malice, anger and other emotional reactions based on perceived injustice or wrongdoing, which will taint our reasoning. The problem is – all of us are always right in reacting in certain ways. And yes, I mean it when I say it.

Our framework of reference is a very important indicator of our behaviors and actions. And no-one can tell me, as a seasoned counselor, that anyone is wrong in thinking the way that they do – simply because we are, as SaLuSa says, all different. No one can claim that their developmental circumstances and life experiences are the same. These experiences shape our belief systems and create our behavior patterns.

This is how we feel and react – real-time, and according to our own personal set of rules, based on our views and beliefs of morality, social interaction, love, emotions and other mechanisms – some more savory than others.

What SaLuSa does say however – is that we can always be introspective – i.e. retrace our steps and determine why we embarked on a certain action that caused a chain of events to unfold? Usually we are not going to apologize or try to make amends because we feel guilty and fear rejection or further confrontation. So we become apathetic and leave it all be – but not for long.

The guilt forces us to discuss it with others to try and validate our actions, and a chain of gossip ensues. Not long – and the story reaches the ears of others, and what is worse – it morphs out of proportion, non-truths gets inserted as a result of assumptions, and a new set of problems emerge which is ripped totally out of context. To make matters worse – we are all guilty to some extent.

In this fast paced world of ours – it is simply not possible to take time to reflect anymore, before we speak or act out. Our autonomous nervous system, which interacts with our emotional reactions, has been conditioned to react fast and do so unconsciously. We have lost the art of constructive communication, simply because we live a fast paced life.

Here – I am not referring to anti-social behavior, in which case such malice would have been planned – I am simply referring to pathologically adopted behavior patterns – as a result of sociological conditioning. Planning trouble and malice is another matter all together, and falls into the realm of psychopathy. As a friend says – “Do we really have to share this holographic universe with them?”

Yet – the main point I am trying to make is that we act before we think. We should instead think before we act.

Living the virtues of the heart philosophy is actually easy – it simply requires us to understand that we live in a world of consequence. Let us look at them.

Appreciation, on the subtle levels, is focused on a specific awareness that God surrounds our fellow beings as a field of consciousness and that this Consciousness unifies us. If we are unified, it follows that we operate as a collective consciousness at some deeper level, and in this place, we share a common purpose that is richly textured, supremely vital, and yet mysterious, dynamic and uncertain.

This awareness, or even belief, shifts our focus from the small details of our personal life to the vision of our purpose as a species.

At a more practical level, appreciation expresses itself in the small gestures of gratitude that support relationship loyalty and bonding. The deeper levels of appreciation make the relatively surface level expressions genuine because they stem from the frequencies of soul instead of the motives of the ego or mind.

Humility understands that the being that represents you – your fullest identity – is not represented as a chain reaction of the ego mind. Rather, it is the presence of love embodied in human form, and this love expresses itself in the virtues of the heart, the pure intellect of the contemplative mind, and the co-creative pursuits of the heart, mind, and soul.

Humility is the expression of this love frequency knowing it extracts from what already exists in a higher dimension, and in this dimension love is not a thing of sentiment and emotional heaviness. It is a liberating force that acts according to the archetype of God: All is one. All is equal. All is divine. All is immortal.

Valor is generally used in the context of war, but it is, as an element of love, linked with the act of speaking truth to power, especially when an injustice is committed. It is common in today’s social order to pretend ignorance of the injustices of our world.

Self-absorption in one’s own world is a key threat that undermines the expression of valor, while guilt and fear of consequence are the others.

Compassion, as many teachers have told us, is about the deep awareness of the suffering of another coupled to the desire to relieve that suffering.

In the context of the new intelligence that is seating itself on our planet, compassion is an active desire to assist others to align with the new fields of intelligence that are manifesting in the three dimensional world, aware that their desire and ability to align is distorted by their social enculturation; it does not accurately reflect their intelligence, spiritual inclinations, or purpose.

The planet we live on is an intelligence. It is both physical and intelligent, and has high frequency energetic structures just like us. It is shifting from the 3rd dimension to the higher 4th dimension and it has been planning this before humanity was even seeded on the planet. It is part of the evolutionary cycle of planetary systems to transmute accumulated densities from one dimension before passing into a higher dimensional grid.

Compassion therefore is extended to both our fellow beings and the planet itself with the realization that we are part of one another’s destiny if only for a single lifetime.

Understanding that it is a fact that we are composed of love at our core structure, and it is this love frequency that is the basis of our immortal consciousness or soul, is important. All of the lower densities are shadows of this light and operate in time and space, which provide a veil of density and separation from this core love frequency. The worlds of time and space alter or cause separation from this connection we feel to the core energetic structure we all are composed of.

This is the paradox of being a human being; our innermost structure is divine love and our outermost structure is a means of experience for the innermost structure.

Unfortunately, we have become conditioned by the outer vehicle to identify with it more than the Soul person – our true self – inside.

Forgiveness operates out of the construct that each of us is doing the best we can under the circumstance of our life experience and the degree that our love frequency saturates our human instrument.

When a person operates from the heart virtues and the rich textures of its authentic frequencies, forgiveness is a natural state of acceptance.

When a perceived injustice enters our experience – no matter how significant or whether we perceive ourselves to be the cause or the effect – we may initially react with the sharp emotions of victim hood or annoyance.

This emotional clutter and distorted emotional reactions can quickly be transformed by experiencing

• Understanding, followed by
• Compassion, followed by
• Forgiveness, followed by
• Appreciation.

This is the equation that transforms the darkness of victim hood or co-reaction into the essence of light, leaving behind only the purest frequency of love stripped of all-purpose.

Forgiveness is really the outward expression of understanding and compassion without the heavy sentiments of duality.

When we look carefully at the virtues of the heart, and what they express – we can see immediately that the philosophy operates on a non-judgmental platform. Furthermore – these virtues form the basis for our own existence – therefore, they from the basis of God’s love for all that creation.

Lifting ourselves out of the darkness and murky emotions that sometimes surrounds us – implies that we release form the ego-mind, and get it to align with our purpose – not it’s purpose. Not that the ego is all bad – the balanced ego can only be good, but enculturization and social conditioning has allowed the ego to dictate for us.

Understanding this, allows for us to reprogamme our reactions towards others, and consciously replace our dysfunctional thought patterns with those of the heart virtues.

We need to understand that all that happens to others and us is consequential, to the extent that we have not planned it – it is simply unconscious behavior patterns being played out because we have adopted it as habit. Therefore – consequence dictates most of our actions, as a matter of fact, ninety-five percent of them.

Through practicing the heart virtues – we can transcend the ego-mind, and be loving, forgiving, understanding and compassionate, without resorting to violent outbursts when we need to defend ourselves against injustice.

We are after all aspects of God, and therefore should have the same inherent qualities.

Let us use this new energy being seated on our planet – and co-create consciously with Love, Understanding, Compassion, Valor, Forgiveness and Humility. This is what SaLuSa is trying to tell us.

We can transcend our outer Self and troublesome emotional environment. We simply need to align ourselves with the energies of a benevolent God, which is inherently also ours.

So, retrace those steps, be introspective, think about your actions, become aware of them, and change them into benevolent actions of Love, through understanding and forgiveness.

It does not take much, just some humility, and forgiveness of self and others. Life is to short. Time on this world is short. And therefore – be kind to yourself and others by offering the hand of reconciliation whenever you have the chance.

It is a spiritual imperative.

Much Love

Energy manifestation – our own creation?

As I was painting a mind-scene today, a beautiful sorghum field outside an imaginary town in the Free State, (well, I remember the scene, but cannot place the location) my thoughts went out to a friend in need. Yes, we plant and we grow stuff. In more ways than we can even imagine.

Listening to a particularly poignant sonata by the composer, Franz Schubert last night, I was compelled to unearth some philosophical scriblings on his music I had written down ten or so years ago, highlighting our empathetic nature, as human beings. I have to admit – that at the time I was suffering the loss of a very good friend, my piano teacher for many years, Laurie Potgieter. If it were not for his unwavering belief in my musical abilities, and his continuing development of my “music empathy” I would not have become a tolerable pianist. Simply put – I was scared of musical emotion.

I had the power on the piano – and also the sensitivity – but I simply could not reconcile the two inputs as a coherent effort. In one moment, I would strike chords like Gina Bachauer on steroids, or I would flounder and produce a too florid rendition of the Moonlight sonata, devoid of any movement or dynamics, as would befit a rookie.

While learning an impromptu by Schubert, Laurie accused me of playing it as if I was fighting with a jackhammer demolishing the piano. “I cannot understand why you show the music no emotional respect”, he said. I understand now, why, but he did not, so his comments were justified, and also not justified. You see – I had a very limited technique. And to make matters worse, which I think contributed to the technique issue, was that I was (am) an ADHD sufferer.

Because of this disability, ADHD sufferers are notoriously ill equipped in the art of patience. We do not have patience, simply because we are insecure about our own abilities. Therefore, we try and get it over with as quickly as possible. Why? Under pressure we flounder, and the mind takes on an energy that we cannot control. Stage fright.

That is why we start things of, and never seem to complete it. It is not that ADHD sufferers lack the ability, and we must distinguish here between the various sub-groups of this disability, but that some sufferers simply do not believe they can pull it off.

You see – this lack of self-confidence is bred from early childhood. As we absorb the information that makes us who we are, we invariably also absorb the projected images of others, and adopt those belief systems. It does not stop in our formative years either, for as we experience and interact, sometimes destructively, we adopt more truths which eventually taints our minds and cause us to live in less than appropriate ways. And think in less than appropriate ways. And here I mean, think bout everything in less than appropriate ways.

Some of us are lucky – in that we develop very good coping mechanisms to the dis-ease, and turn out to be super-successful. Others are not that lucky – as they find themselves (drawn by habit and other sosio-cultural factors) bound to situations and conditions as prescribed by their framework of reference.

I remember where my problem with the piano started. Our next-door neighbor was a music teacher – and I asked my mother (at age six) to please ask if she would teach me. The music teacher refused – as I was not a good candidate – in her words, “he plays by ear, therefore I cannot teach him”. I was devastated. To make matters worse – this rejection of a desire and also of me as a human being, was made worse, as I was sent packing to boarding schools for 10 years, simply because of practical considerations.

This was a double whammy, and those two singular acts (although well intended) set the course of my life, my thoughts, my self worth, self confidence and self value. As a child of six – the trauma is enormous, and the feelings of rejection even worse. It is like a tree being uprooted and planted somewhere else – then uprooted again, and planted in a different location, simply because the landscaping plan changes every year or so.

Do not get me wrong here – as there is no blame intended, as all of this was done with proper intent as to the sustainability of the family unit, as well as the observations of the music teacher. It was her belief that I was un-trainable, and it was my mother’s belief that I would be safer in boarding schools. That was simply the way it was done then, as part of the governments welfare and educational policies.

Yet – where does all of this leave us? How does it influence our personal unconscious, and our behavior patterns? Do we come out of the experiences unscathed, as balanced adults? How does it influence our thinking, our creativity, and our life skills? How do we reconcile our insecurities in a competitive environment? In other words, how do we think unconsciously?

This is scary stuff.

Defense mechanisms taint our life, which becomes chronically adopted, and we become resentful. We can even become entitlement junkies – feeling bullied and so become the bullies ourselves. Or we can fall into victim consciousness and play the role of poor Eliza. We can become extreme narcissists – refusing to accept anything less than the best for ourselves, and do anything to attain those goals. And we can become fearful – developing a lack consciousness that can also have debilitating consequences. The palette of emotional disabilities is endless.

Yet – it is our thought patterns that is the most telling here – and returning to my heading – I wish to make everyone aware of the energy created by thoughts. Everyone that I council these days, comment on the way thoughts manifest – sometimes immediately, but without fail, within a few days or hours. And it affects not only organic thought patterns and objects – in-organic stuff as well.

Our minds are conditioned in certain ways of thinking – as a result of trauma induced by environmental stimuli and experiences. We also relate these mind conditions – to instruments, electronic equipment, cars etc. as we negotiate each day. For instance – you drive of and think about that scratch which is bothering you, and you wish you could fix it. The thought creates a potentiality, and bingo! Someone drives into you, and the fender bender is located at exactly the scratch that bothered you.

Or, your DVD player is not functioning, and you wish you could replace the bloody thing. Next day they break into your house and steal just that item. I had the experience when my car overheated – and since then, I am fearful of the car I am driving overheating. Guess what happens? They all overheat. It is either the thermostat, or water pump or some arbitrary something that malfunctions.

Take animals – I have a fear of my dogs being run over, since I ran over Destiny – about eight months ago. Since then the fear has grown to the extreme of over-protection. Guess what – another one gets run over, by my neighbor. I have lost three computer hard-drives in three months – and why? Because I have developed a fear of my computers crashing, since the first time it did last year.

So – my point is that giving energy to potential problems will manifest them. Where the attention goes – the energy goes – even if unconscious in its origin. Think about a person these days – and they contact you. We link mind power with objects and people – and this is our new quantum reality. As we move deeper into 4^th density – we connect on levels that was previously not possible.

We even harbor new electromagnetic powers – as our cellular structure is changing into crystalline/silica composition, the peizo-electrical nature of our bodies is changing. As the crystalline structure stresses – immense energy is released, sometimes blowing light bulbs, hard-drives, amplifiers and the like.

In order to force change in our thinking – the powers that is will cause strange things to happen. Like – your vacuum cleaner suddenly coming to life? What is it that you need to “suck up” and discard? Your printer malfunctioning? What is it that you want to print? Maybe look at it again? Or – my personal favorite – outlook express suddenly hangs…freezes, just as you want to send that e-mail. Control-alt-delete, and it is gone. Lets start over – and then more clarity comes into being, and you write with proper intent and cut out the crap.

So, as Metatron says – impeccability of thought. No wonder they make such an issue of it, the Ascended Masters and all those on high. I can see the lesson here.

We are so conditioned, and project our fears and ego-needs (yes, it is all fear based) to such an extent that it impacts our lives on all fronts. You think something like “I have to be careful here”, and it manifests.

So – please do not swear at your car, fear for the life of your dog or cat, fear the love that is being offered, fear the power of others, be scared of ghosties and goalies, say no to help, and generally create unnecessary thought patterns that can impact your physical existence.

We live in new, exciting times. Things are not what they used to be. So, discard the old isms and ego-behaviors and create anew. I know – I am a fine one to talk. But we can try and give it our attention, by becoming self-conscious of our thoughts and actions. Not even a “cancel, cancel, cancel” is going to help anymore. We have to avoid the potential.

And that is quite a task.

Much Love and Light.

On falsity and clones – the anatomy of the Ego-cult.

Ok. A close friend and me have been exploring the concept of psychopathy and narcissism as we have both had experiences with these individuals – which left emotional scars, still plaguing both of us to this day.

I have – by virtue of my trade, a good basic knowledge of psychopathy, but it must also be said that I do not necessarily recognize one when I encounter one. This is simply because the really vindictive one’s are a rarity in society, and so well masked behind a façade of “normality” that you often only realize their true psychological identity once you have been successfully manipulated into their web of lies and deceit.

What is more – many of these individuals have so successfully integrated into society – that their camouflage have now molded around them – causing them to appear normal, with some common personality traits that we can all identify with. This is scary, because we interact with people like this almost every day.

Because of their generally conducive and amiable facades, most of us will fall for the charms of the narcissist and psychopath. They are outgoing, display a keen interest in you, make you feel fabulous, listen and respond well, and soon they have you snared. Welcome to hell. As soon as you are snared – they start stripping you of all identity, self worth and self-control. Then desperation sets in – you want out.

Unfortunately for the victim – this is easier said than done – as the psychopath and narcissist does not relinquish control easily. They ease up to make you feel safe again – just to launch the following attack. These attacks are mostly emotional blackmail – with the explicit intent of breaking you down into nothingness in order to exercise more control over you, your resources (money, sex, social acceptance and manipulation) and their own self-esteem and needs.

A study published in 2010 (Joshua W. Buckholtz, BS. Vanderbilt University, Tennessee) suggests that the feel-good hormone, dopamine, is released into the nucleus accumbens (a sector of the brain regulating gratification) when a psychopath or narcissist identifies a target. Almost like being a junky – they become addicted to dopamine, and therefore have a reward system in place for their malicious escapades.

This makes them dangerous, as the behavior is adopted chronically, especially if you consider that the psychopath has stopped developing emotionally since age three. Lack of emotion implies lack of empathy and compassion, and a disregard for social norms, rules and laws. And this is certainly true in psychopaths as well as narcissists. They are soul-less creatures, and doing harm is their trade.

However, as I continue to delve into the psyche of these individuals, my thoughts keep on going back to the horrors of cult-consciousness – and the comparison I inevitably draw is that – on the micro-cosmic scale of existence we are all little cults – personalized, yes, but little self-serving cults anyway.

But a little more about cult leaders.

Cult leaders have as their ultimate aim dominance over a group – their laws and beliefs will be respected and not questioned. Charming, enigmatic and docile as they may appear – they have hearts of ice. In essence – they limit our personal choices and thoughts, and rule our belief systems. It is all about “thou shalt” – their own personal gains (money, adoration, self-aggrandization) becomes their god (yours to) and that becomes their own dopamine saturated gratification system. Examples of these individuals abound.

Dogmatic adherence to the cult’s rules, belief systems, monetary policies (tithing) is demanded – and further manipulation is to be expected to extort as much as possible from it’s members. That – in essence, is the mind of the cult leader. They create a pseudo-religious movement – cultivate members and then extract maximum benefit. Period.

This is particularly true of new age movements – let’s get you hooked, devise a good self-help programme, under the guise of “the guru”, and extract as much financial gain as we can, while boosting your ego and telling you that you can do it all alone. Just buy my books, cassettes, CD’s and you are a winner. Gullible as we are – we lap it all up, and we again just blindly (and with much enthusiasm) jump into the deep-end and eventually flounder, sink and drown in our own remorse. Another one down. The secret is still “A Secret”.

As a good friend said the other day – “to think that we share a holographic universe with people like that”. Well, it gets worse, and I am now going to raise a few eyebrows.

Being the thinking, analytical type, my mind raced as I suddenly HAD to confront the issue of psychopathy, narcissism and other co-morbid related personality disorders. When confronting these behaviors, inevitably one psychologizes one-self and compare. Oh my gawwd – am I like this? What – I think I may have done that before? Oh yes – I can recognize myself here….and so we batter the Self into thinking the unthinkable. In two weeks flat – you firmly believe that you have at least a zillion psychopathic tendencies.

And we have all done that. Self- psychologizing is a dangerous pass-time. When confronting one-self, rational thinking flees the mind-coup – simply because we cannot detach (like a psychiatrist or therapist can) from our own inner feelings, and therefore have a very skewed view of reality. We cannot expect to have the knowledge (or detach sufficiently) to be able to be discerning in evaluating our own inner psyche.

This is especially true of ADD/ADHD sufferers – who very often, after you tell them what they are suffering from – exclaim, “Thank God I am not mad after all?” And you say “no, you are not”, and explain the physiological workings of the dis-ease.

The same applies to Asperger syndrome sufferers – who simply have an inability to identify with their emotions – yet can feel and experience intense love, empathy and compassion. AS’rs feel rather, on a macrocosmic scale – as though they feel the emotions of the whole world. So they have difficulty zoning in on the object/person that causes the feelings.

Personally I feel that AS’rs are first-timers on earth – maybe even in a lower density, as they feel the collective, rather than the individual emotion. This causes their thalamus to go into open-faucet mode, making them “allergic” to too much environmental input, and thus they fall into autistic behavior. They also have a tendency to concentrate on one subject – much like they have a certain honed talent, and become extremely successful in their endeavors. In more advanced societies – nurturing of talents in service of, or for the good of the community is common practice when educating children.

So when the self-psychologizing bug bites you – think again. And I will tell you why. Human beings have an ego. As we will know by now – we get born with an empty undeveloped ego, and it develops as we go along, based on the environmental stimuli that we are confronted with. We also know that our brain will absorb everything we experience between ages zero and six – as truth and store it in the personal unconscious as markers of good and bad, causing us to react in certain ways when confronted with a similar stimulus.

The ego – being a sort of referee between the ID and super-ego, will then mediate appropriate responses – based on our personal memory banks. In it’s efforts – the ego will then enact these responses, simply by instructing our body and emotions – without our approval or prior knowledge. We are given no choice in the matter – and when we become aware of this unconscious interaction, our ego devises strategies to counter our awareness.

Simply put – we live in a personal ego-cult. The ego is very happy with it’s achievements, and therefore will do anything to disallow conscious thinking in it’s captive. Yes, the unbalanced ego can be that bad. Mainly – it thinks that it does good – and gets a kick out of steering us towards it’s own reward system. It’s dopamine flows uninhibited.

Please do not think that I am saying that the ego is all bad – for it is not. The balanced ego can protect us from much harm and ensure a balanced passage on planet earth. But the unbalanced ego – on the other hand, can be destructive.

When we lack self-worth, self-esteem, self- love and self –value – the ego will go out of it’s way to provide same – and it does not matter how it does it. As long as it attains it by any means – it is happy. The problem is – the unbalanced ego has been bred by physical and emotional abuse. Therefore – we are dealing with consequence. The consequence is dysfunctional adopted behavior patterns, which tends to dominate our lives. And these – in turn, were inherited.

We adapt to circumstances as they present themselves, through observation and interaction. The bullied person often becomes the lying persona, simply as it is trying to prevent further bullying and confrontation. This will then manifest as a behavior pattern in all his/her personal interactions. But because he is a lying so and so does not make this person a psychopath. Or a narcissist for that matter. It is a consequence of conditioning.

And who do we blame? Actually – no-one. Those who programmed us – simply acted out their own programs. Our mothers and fathers were also prone to their own conditioning, and so also others that we interacted with socially. We simply responded to their conditioned behavior – physical and emotional.

The unconscious (both personal and collective) is nothing less than a cult in marvelous full blown swing. It rules our lives, forces us to behave in certain ways, and leave us without really conscious choices – as it rules through the unseen mechanisms of our psyche. It is – and we are, therefore, simply unconscious. It acts on programmed responses, informed mostly by false truths, and leaves us floundering in a maelstrom of inner turmoil.

So – as we enter the period of solstice, have compassion with yourself. Don’t blame the self. Don’t blame others. Forgive the self. And forgive others – for we are merely products of society. We are clones bred to simulate others. And who wants to be a clone?

It is time for us to discard the personal ego-cult – and align ourselves to conscious awareness of what it is and what it is capable of. Eventually – through conditioning, the ego will have no choice but to comply with our new being-ness, and become more balanced in it’s responses, mirroring the new us.

So when you next practice the “art” of self-psychologizing – remember that you are dealing with your own personal built-in cult consciousness – even though it is mainly an unconscious one. Thank it consciously for it’s input – but also make it aware that it’s intrusions on your own authentic self is at an end. And that consequence can call it a day.

The new spiritual imperative also has relevance to the ego. It has to align to this new paradigm, and let go of its dogmatic behavior.

Only you can do it, and I, for one, refuse to be part of its control systems anymore.

Much Love and Light

Great Expectations – and how we create them

After another barrage of strange dreams last night, I have been prompted by those on nigh to write about creation – our own version of it, that is, and how it adversely affects our lives, through assumption, guilt, blame and other negative emotions.

According to the new-ish science of epigenetics, we create, through interaction with our environment, a cellular and genetic process of creation and re-creation. That is – we respond to certain environmental stimuli, which we either accept as false or true, and incorporate it into our physical and mental belief systems. The cells respond, by adopting this as truth, embedding it into our cellular memory system, and adapting our thought patterns and responses accordingly.

Only when “truth” has been accepted – can the cellular community respond with certainty – i.e. – if our belief is strong and firmly entrenched – we can then manifest the belief as a physical and mental reality.

That – unfortunately, is where it gets stopped – right in its tracks. The Ascended Masters tells us all the time – it is only a potentiality, and that potentiality can also be ruined by another potentiality. In other words – here we have to do with a cauldron of ingredients which either work as intended – or implode/explode simply because the ingredients are not coherent enough to manifest in our desire.

In fairness – we have to draw the line somewhere, between spirituality and physicality. If we accept that Universal Laws will guarantee an outcome – we must also accept, reluctantly, that outcomes are based on potentiality, and how other people react to our desires.

This creates the first problem – as we cannot rely on others to follow our truths, or our desires, as it may be in conflict with theirs. So, outcomes cannot be necessarily be guaranteed, but how we respond to them, can, based on our individual belief systems and emotional resilience.

If we look at Kantian philosophy – we see that he draws a clear distinction between good and bad – and further defines that good is always coherent with Universal Law. That is – will it have a good or bad outcome for macrocosmic potentiality? Will all benefit from the outcome, generated by protagonistic potentialities?

This – I think, is what the Ascended Masters try so desperately to imprint in our minds – impeccability of thought.

However – impeccability of thought is an individual thing. Never mind how impeccable our thoughts, it still has the potentiality to conflict with not so impeccable other thoughts, both our own and that of others. And that is where things go seriously belly-up. In philosophy – we can argue about pain – what is it, how does it manifest, how does it make us feel. Is it physical, mental, universal, collective, individual and so on? All of the above is true – but have the potential to vary in truth and probability according to individual viewpoints and belief systems.

But I am rambling on in my usual way. What is it that we actually create for ourselves – I had to ask myself?

Well – if we focus on impeccability of thought – personally and spiritually we can only create good – given that our impeccability is focused and does not waver in its intention and belief. And that is what makes the human being such an interesting species.

Our Creator imbued us with a limitless emotional expression module (call it a processor). This processor – like any computer, has to interact with an operating system, and as we all know, the viruses that can infect the information programmed into our computer, can also destroy it.

A virus embeds itself into your computer system, via a malicious download from another computer, email or Internet site. This then infects the integrity of your operating system – and you can suffer severe damage – losing all your data, crashing your hard drive, corrupting your system, and so on. The net result? You have to start all over again, reprogram your computer, and re-load your settings and so forth.

So – let us look at ourselves as a computer. We work, write, send emails, expressing how we feel, giving information to others, and create an electronic environment that possess’ consciousness. It is our thoughts – it adapts and integrates our information, we download other programs onto the hard drive – expressing our needs. The computer becomes an instrument mirroring us, our truths (and sometimes untruths), and what makes us tick.

So what happens when it crashes? The ensuing tirade, as I know you will agree, is not funny. A perfect example of “oh woe is me!”. Our world is in tatters; we have lost communication (or is it control?) with the rest of the personal environment, and all comes to a staggering halt.

Ditto-human emotions. Through not so impeccable thoughts – we become guilty of our own sins, actions, and create consequence. Ever promised something and then not keep that promise? Made an agreement and then not keep it? I am certainly guilty of it – as I think we all are.

It all boils down to how impeccable our thoughts are versus our actions. And I am in no way implying that things do not change – as we live in a fluid, dynamic universe and reality. It is how we manage change that is my bugbear.

Instead of synchronizing with our dynamic, fluid environment, we instead focus on the negative, and viola! Our impeccability has just been relegated to the nether regions of our existence.

In human terms – when things go belly up – we blame, curse, doubt, and loose our emotional marbles. We react personally, against the assumed protagonists, instead of reacting to the situation. In that act alone – we create further potentialities for strive and mayhem. In this emotional blind-state – we crawl around on the floor searching for our marbles, and never seem to find. Hello, fight or flight mode.

I always say that our first intention when we create an agreement is always pure and filled with integrity. That is what we want to do, and no strange thought will fill our mind that can negate the original intent. Yet – as things go along, and we are in the process of enacting the agreement – potentialities change, things go wrong, and as such we either manage them, coherently – or we attack one another.

That is the human being slumbering in duality.

Conscious creation has rules and laws. I do not for one minute think that God created this universe, without managing it, and subjecting it to Natural Laws. Laws, that compliments one-another instead of fighting against one-another. These laws do not blame, hate, scream and throw tantrums. They adapt to their fluid environment, working together to create potentiality for expansion and growth.

Do we do it? No – instead we blame others for our unfortunate experiences, we project our own isms and sins onto others, and effectively transfer blame in order to make ourselves feel better, and hide our sins under the rug. This is mostly an unconscious response – but sometimes, it is also conscious. And that is the crux.

As we evolve spiritually and emotionally and become more conscious – we are going to be held responsible. Being conscious of something means that you are aware of something - and being aware means that you are cognizant. Being cognizant implies awareness of consequence – and if we are aware of consequence – surely we can try and make consequential outcomes beneficial instead of destructive?

It is time for us to face up to our new responsibilities – and breed new thought patterns, as our own great expectations does not match up anymore with our vibrational essence. Creating discord in our emotional bodies as a result of sticking to old thought patterns and dogmas – is not going to help us one iota. We live in a new, fluid, constantly changing reality. Things are not what they used to be – and we create almost instantly.

So buckle up – and go with the new flow of super-consciousness-in-creation-ability.

Be impeccable. Think clearly. Interrogate your own reasoning. And make sure that whatever you think – is filled with your own conscious truth and not ego-centered virus’ that can infect your system.

When you do that – you practice the energy of Love. For Love in it’s pure form is always good, and has the energies of Hope and Trust firmly imbedded in it’s programme.

So, go ahead and reprogram your system, to express the new energies that are now available to all of us. Think before you speak, because what you speak and think, you WILL create.

Much Love and Light

Pride versus Gratitude

Yesterday, I had the unfortunate experience of having my loving dog Sagrys run over by a car. He is alive and well, for which I am grateful, but it will take surgery to get him up and running again. The pain I felt in my helplessness is not something I would wish on anyone. But it made me contemplate and ponder on the current state of our global consciousness.

You see – when I confided in a relation – the immediate reaction was that “I should put the dog down” if I could not afford the surgery – which I cannot, all truth be told. As with all Light-workers, we are apparently doomed to a future of struggle against big business greed – from basic necessities like food, to caring for ourselves and those close to us – even our pet animals.

This remark reverberated through my being and I felt immediate anger at the sheer disregard for the life of another entity – be it whatever it is.

Some of you know about my intense guilt when I had to kill a wolf spider and her one-thousand off-spring, who chose to hatch in my bathroom. It was unavoidable – as I could not single handedly catch and safely dispose of a thousand-and-one spiders, while the petrified bystanders balanced on cupboards and ladders, horror clearly visible on their faces. Never mind that the spider was harmless – she just looked scary, while trying to protect her brood and herself.

At that moment of guilt – I made friends with the spiders and the other creatures that reside in my environment. Since then I have developed techniques to catch them safely, and dispose of them safely. So I am guilt free, and they can live merrily alongside me, contributing to the bio-sphere in and around my property. That is not all – this apparently had the desired effect. Since peace has been brokered – they do not come into the house anymore. Frogs off course – is another story. They seem to have an affinity for my bedroom, and me, and continue to provide entertainment.

All said and done, I really thought about this last night, and why my life is so filled with little dramas that never seem to end. If the car does not cough and die, the dog gets run over. I thought I was living the compassionate, caring, loving life that all initiates should strive for – helping where I can and doing good where I can – mostly without energy exchange. So, like a real drama queen, in despair I threw my hands into the air and asked “why why why” adding a bit of victim-ness to the mix. I cursed spirit for their apparent war against my efforts, and me, and then went tearfully to bed, trying to devise ways of saving my dog.

Through all of this mayhem the words “just trust, all will be well” kept on ringing in my head. Now trust is something – which a friend told me the other day that must be earned. So I decided – OK God, I will trust, and I will give you the opportunity to earn that trust.

Off course – being me, I could not sleep and further thought about the words my close relative uttered. Hoe can you put down an animal which brings so much joy, gives so much unconditional love, simply because you cannot afford the medical intervention? What kind of consciousness has been bred on this planet that even allows such thinking, that we will even sacrifice a loving animal Soul, simply because we are “practical” and consider the animal dispensable – like a garbage bag thrown asunder on the edge of the pavement pick-up point. I understand that, if the animal’s quality of life is going to be affected, that one may have to consider euthanasia. But certainly that is the last resort?

With that manner of thinking – be it unconscious inheritance from past conditioning or not – where will we all end up? So, in tantrum mode I fell asleep. This morning – I woke up with the same dark thoughts – as is our peculiar human habit, according to master Kuthumi. We always wake up with the previous days problems firmly entrenched in our minds. And he is right, our mental computers seem to open up in the exact program it was in when shut down..

Thank heavens – when conscious of our thoughts and human habits – we can also shut it down.

And then it hit me. Have you asked for assistance from anyone, your support group, friends – even just readers of your columns? Have you considered that there may be others that are on the same path as you – and that may also strive to be compassionate, caring and understanding? Why not try and create a Sagrys fund? Most of them know the loving and compassionate nature of this animal.

And then it hit me again.

Pride versus Gratitude. I am so conditioned in taking care of myself and others – that I do not allow being taken care off. The impulse of self-preservation against all odds have now firmly rooted in my being-ness. Quite simply, I have forgotten to recognize gratitude and acknowledge it as an essential component of Love.

I have also failed to recognize the power of our true spiritual growth, over the past years. The becoming of the true hu-man. And apart from Love – the most essential ingredient here is gratitude. We can have compassion, humilty, understanding, we can forgive easily, but if we do not show gratitude – we are lost. It is the same as not saying “thank you”, or even saying it, but not meaning it.

So, I still have not told you about the little tiff I had last might with someone very close, who will remain un-named. As is now entrenched in me – my response was filled with three elements of the virtues of the heart components – valor, understanding and forgiveness. What is amazing is that this is becoming second nature – I do not have to think about it anymore. The process of re-conditioning is working.

What is even more amazing is that help was offered from this very source – even though a friendship was almost ruined. This is the power of love-energy. And now I understand gratitude – as it flowed over me – for various reasons, like a mantel of Love.

So God, thank you. Your trust has been earned. I will from now on trust – that all things have purpose and all is not always as it seems to be. That Love grows and compassion still exists, and that through honest confrontation the good always flows – if we allow it. As long as we confront the situation – not the person, with care and understanding, the little branch that has broken off will sprout ten new branches and we will have even more beauty and Love to share.

The ladies that work the communal gardens on my property just came to enquire where “wolf” is – because he did not come and greet them this morning. Sagrys is much loved by the community – and therefore my profound gratitude goes out to all that has contributed to my growing – which allowed me to understand and live the philosophy that love is stronger than conflict. Which in turn allowed him to be saved.

Much Love and Light to all

Deon

On being Self-Conscious

I may have mentioned this before – but the other day I told a friend of mine that I want share ideas with him regarding consciousness, and my thoughts now expanded as a result of some deep thinking after a significant “aha” moment, as to what it means to be Self-Conscious.

As we know – consciousness comes in many forms. We can be conscious of a tree, a view. We can be conscious of the leaves rustling in the tree, and the view changing as clouds move, or a thunderstorm builds on the horizon. This is the basic human expression of physical perception (consciousness). Being conscious of something, means that we can perceive through our senses, as they respond to environmental stimuli.

We can feel emotions, which is different from feeling a physical object. We can also sense energy – which is different from sensing movement. So, we can safely postulate that consciousness comes in many expressions, from intuitive feelings (sense), physical observations (sight), which can be static, and then morph into conscious emotional expression – as we watch the beauty of leaves moving in the breeze or pick up on the thoughts of another. All of these are an expression of our conscious responses to our physical and non-physical environment.

The problem with consciousness is that very little of what we experience or do is actually a conscious response. Usually – our consciousness acts on the impulses and prompts of the unconscious. Most of us are not even aware that 95% of our responses are unconscious, as we act on autopilot. As a matter of fact – science, up to the present, have only identified 40 conscious actions, which means our conscious response system consists of a measly little 40-bit processor.

Most of us do not know that our response programming happens between ages zero to six. Human developmental theorists - the most notable of them Erikson and Paiget, have long told us about the ill effects of acting unconsciously towards or around our children, and even others in our environment. The spoken word, or action, without Self-Conscious consideration, can mostly do more harm than good.

The human development phase of “programming” between ages zero and six is essentially spent in a semi-conscious state of hypnosis – also called hypnagogic trance - essentially the same neural state that hypnotists use to download new behaviors into the subconscious mind of clients as part of behavior altering therapy.

“Give me a child until he is seven years old and I will give you the man” is an old Jesuit statement that ultimately tells us that the individual personality is “constructed” during the formative years of children. In essence – the child in the product of conditioning, as the child-mind acts like a sponge that absorbs everything it experiences during these formative years as “truth”.

What is worse – we, the adult caregivers act like self-proclaimed Pavlovians and feed our children and those young ones in our care exactly the same information that has produced us. And so the scourge of genetic mind-state manipulation (transference) continues into the next generation and beyond – simply because we remain unconscious as to the dysfunctions created by our initial programming.

My point is the following: Even in a state of hypnagogic trance – the child is in a state of hypnotic Self-Consciousness. This opens a can of worms for educators and care givers – as what I am trying to impart is that this state of awareness – or Delta/Theta brain state – is when the conscious-unconscious interaction is at it’s most alert level than at any time of our lives.

After this phase of development – we go into autopilot mode. In a sense – the unconscious still does not exist in the Delta brain state. In the Theta brain state – it becomes aware. In the Alpha brain state – it takes over, after programming is complete.

As caregivers – be it in the parenting role, therapist role, teacher role, or even the boss, which is also archetypical role-playing – we need to become more Self-Conscious. Our thoughts must change from being merely reactionary, to impeccable Self-Conscious consideration in all we do and speak.

We are creating the next generation – or affirming the current dysfunctional one, through our actions towards one-another. Let us have a change of heart – reformulate our concept of duty and will, and act Self-Consciously.

Now is the time to embrace the new reality of Metatronic consciousness - the age of impeccability is upon us. This new science of Trans-personal Psychology, combined with the new energy flooding the earth, will persist. It is the new stage of our spiritual evolution.

We can either embrace it - and cause our own resurrection, or we can roll along in utter ignorance and wither away. It is our choice.

Much Love and Light

Another day - another Trial

Another day – another trial

Sometimes I just wish the dreams would stop. They are so riddled with aspects of ourselves that constantly want attention – I just do not know where to start making sense of it all.

The process of releasing “that which is no longer appropriate in our lives” (words we hear so often) is really starting to make me feel bombarded by my own Self – hinting all the time at stuff that needs to go – but also remaining inconclusive as to the prompts the Higher Self usually gives me to gain an understanding of “why”. This yo-yo existence is really getting at me – it is as if I cannot find my own style – my own way of being is compromised by my own internal responses. The old bugbear of intellectual rationalization, I suspect, is the culprit.

All said and done – I know that I am not alone in my struggle for self-determination – that we are all going through some type of tumultuous spiritual awakening that tests us on all levels. We seem to have conquered one issue – then another pops up for review. And the same old pattern re-emerges day after day. We actually do not get the time to integrate new awareness’, realizations and decisions. We just get wacked all the time.

Literally – we are being prompted to put the Self on trial. As we review aspects of our past behavior, we become aware of our own lack of impeccability in decision-making, emotional reactions and guilt takes a hold. And maybe it is the ego-self, which creates the problem.

The process of ego-alignment and re-integration in line with our new realizations and awareness’ has another emotional fall-out. Ego-grief. We always fail to understand that the ego also has it’s own internal losses that it has to process.

It also grieves the loss of mechanisms it has put into place to regulate our lives – to keep us balanced and fairly safe as we negotiate planet earth. Suddenly the coping strategies that it has so carefully honed to perfection need to be discarded for another – one that aligns more to our new realizations and conscious behavior changes. In short – the unbalanced ego is making way for another ego-expression – that of alignment with our spiritual renewal. So, it too faces loss, as well as rejection.

As we all know – none of us takes kindly to rejection – especially if it affects our own self-worth, self-love and self-image. Rejection makes us doubt everything that we believe about ourselves, and if severe, also forces us into mourning. So, we experience a double-whammy. We are grieving, even though we do not acknowledge it – as the triad (body/mind/spirit) works through the process of releasing and re-integration.

To top it all – our physical bodies are also changing – becoming lighter and more refined in its vibration. As this process unfolds – we also experience another phenomenon – the opening of the hypothalamus. As it opens more – we become hyper-vigilant to any information or environmental stimulus that forces spiritual change and therefore evolution. Literally – our hearts are opening themselves up to receive more Love Energy. Research indicates that it is the hypothalamus that regulates our religious neurological functioning, as it acts as a receptor for anything spiritual or “within”, like meditation, prayer and active contemplation.

If we follow the teachings of Archangel Metatron – we notice that he talks about the impeccability of Soul Expression. This, I think, is the process that we are currently facing. As we consciously get more clarity about our spiritual purpose – the Soul Expression becomes more linear with our conscious thinking processes.

Going through this cleansing process. as we think – we question the purity and intention of our thoughts, as well as the energetic transfer that is the consequence of that thought. This forces us to become more conscious of our own redundant internal emotional thought mechanisms, and thus forces conflict within.

More and more I am coming to the conclusion that we are facing a rebirth – and have to do a review of our lives so far. So – it is like judgment day for us. Face our past and our past actions. We face our judgmental attitudes and our own self-sabotage. It is the only way that we will get more clarity on our future, and indeed – the quickening spiritual evolution that we face on a Universal scale.

This is not an easy process, as we have to align and make peace with stuff on the level of the collective unconscious as well. As we are all inter-related, on a cellular level, and the fields of consciousness we share – this evolutionary process touches us all. As a result of this – we start to feel like a single consciousness. It is therefore no wonder that our intuitive and telepathic abilities are developing at the speed of light. We kind of “get it” on a global level. We are becoming part of the macro-cosmos, instead of just living in the illusion of a micro-existence.

This creates more problems for us, as we now face the problems of others through energetic transfer. Remember – the mind has the ability to communicate with other minds on a level we still do not understand well enough. So, this transfer of thoughts between minds will have an effect on us individually as well, through unconscious projection. As such – we start being more compassionate and empathic, as we literally feel the pain of others, and pick up their inner thoughts and desires.

This dilemma is difficult to deal with – heaven alone knows, we have enough issues of our own. The only solution is to detach – which makes us feel guilty, if we do not understand that detachment is also empowering. Recognition that detachment, with compassion, can empower others is necessary if we are going to effectively manage our own responses to the new energy.

Compassion – viewed against the backdrop of spiritual evolution and the new energy being seated on the planet – simply means recognizing that others have their life paths to follow, and that we should allow them to make their own choices, and honor their free will. However – detaching also means that we do not get involved in their internal struggles and other emotional needs, unless we choose to do so. And if we choose to do so, then it must be for the empowerment of both parties, and as always – do no harm.

It is not up to us to save those around us, as it is self-realization and self-discovery that creates permanent change and pushes us onwards on the spiritual path. As individuals – we have to own our own changing Self – not others own them for us.

And that is why the process of letting go is seemingly so ruthless.

As our Light Bodies continue to ignite and become more vibrant – it is forcing the shadows out into the open. And this, I think, is why we are suffering such a barrage of back stage entities trying desperately to have their say – they are literally queuing up and causing a major emotional traffic jam in the wings of our personal theatre. They have no place to hide anymore – so, what we resist will simply persist. And part of this last act they will be. Come hell or high water (no pun intended).

So we will have to acknowledge them – and if you do not understand an iota of what they are trying to convey to you – just say thank you for the gift of being in your life for a reason and purpose, forgive the conscious Self and those suffering unconscious Selves for any perceived wrongdoing, and let it go.

Have fun – is all I can say. As our thoughts and reactionary nature is changing from “fight and flight” to “kiss and make up”, consider that our impeccable nature is re-surfacing. Our Hope, Trust and Love hormones are getting stronger, and gaining a foothold over the omnipresent HPA axis and unbalanced ego-responses.

So if your dreams drive you mad – remember that dreams are truly a gift from God. They are releasing and healing mechanisms, controlled by the Monadic aspect of Self. Just allow the dreams to do the work, acknowledge and detach. That is all that is needed.

Much Love and Light to you all

Deon

On Doubt and Love

On Doubt and Love.

My mother always tells me a little story about an elderly black lady who wished to buy a three legged cooking pot from my grandmother’s rural trading store, many years ago. The pots were chained and locked in order to avoid theft. The elderly lady carefully inspected each pot in turn – and then chose one of her liking. She left, happy with her purchase.

A few hours later though – she arrived back, and demanded to choose another pot. Upon enquiring, she simply told my grandmother “I have my doubts!”. Astonished – my grandmother asked her why she had her doubts about the pot? She could not give a suitable answer – except that she just felt that the pot was not right. My grandmother exchanged it for another similar pot, and the old lady was happy, as the new pot “felt right”.

This little story made me think about the human expression of doubt, and what it means in a more metaphysical sense. The human being – in its vastness of individual emotional expression, has become so encultured as a result of the establishment of Negative Law instead of Kantian Positive law (Groundwork of the Metaphysics of Morals), that it has saturated our thinking and denies us individual expression.

Whatever positives manifest in our lives – we always have to question it. Everything must be justified, analyzed and interrogated. If not for our protection, laws in the main limit our choices of free expression. And I am not talking simply about institutional law – I am talking about the unseen cultural and moral expression of law in our social environment. It is all fear based – on the “what if” and the “what about” issues of societal enculturization.

As human beings – there are five causes for our suffering. According to the Vedas, they are:

• Ignorance about the nature of reality (Ego denial)
• Identification with the ego (Ego power)
• Attraction towards objects of desire (Ego desire)
• Repulsion from objects of desire (Ego protection)
• Fear of death. (Ego fear)

These are the basic negative ego-responses that make us suffer or feel happy – even if only

temporary by nature. The fact is that we constantly fluctuate between these states of mental existence because of fear and doubt. Simply put – we doubt, and then fear the expression of Love. Readers of this column will know that I always emphasize our lack of Love expression. We are all just too insecure to allow Love. We doubt ourselves, and fear our love expression as it is in conflict with our sosio-cultural conditioning.

Ever stood in the shopping mall admiring (desire) that Gucci handbag? Ever stood there rationalizing in your mind why you should not buy it? The object of desire has suddenly become the object of repulsion (aversion), and you turn away from it, thinking rather of the money you can save (avoidance of future pain). We do the same with emotional expression (fear of death or hurt).

In the broader scheme of things, we dis-empower ourselves, those around us, and unconsciously transfer these thought processes onto our children, family and other individuals. The mind is like a transistor radio and is a social instrument – it tunes into other minds on a similar wavelength, and you receive the signal, which is transformed into thoughts through the mechanisms of telepathy or intuition.

Mostly this goes unnoticed, as it is absorbed by the personal unconscious and filed neatly away, to be used as a defense mechanism when it is needed again, i.e.; that handbag is of limits – that cute guy is of limits – Love is of limits.

In other words – “I have my doubts”.

So we trundle along and choose the “safe options” in life – those things that we believe cannot hurt us. It is sad that our safe options are usually not safe options. Safe options out of necessity operate on coping mechanisms. “I would rather go with that”, says the ego, “because I know how to deal with it”. “I will not go with that”, says the ego, “because that is an uncertain option”.

And so we disenfranchise ourselves by limiting our love choices, basing them on doubt and fear, rather than on the felt expression.

Love, the unreachable, unseen part of the Authentic Self, which we deny with vehemence, and rather express as desire.

We become victims of our own insecurities, and we commit emotional suicide. This victim-consciousness is a scourge to ourselves. It is time for us to experience Love, and reject fear and doubt. Resurrect yourself, become that whom you truly are, follow the road of wonder that so amply awaits you. Experience anew the abundance of your being-ness, instead of walking the broadways of the herd. It will not hurt you – love never does. It simply empowers.

That is what I choose.

Much Love and Light

Deon