Yesterday, I had the unfortunate experience of having my loving dog Sagrys run over by a car. He is alive and well, for which I am grateful, but it will take surgery to get him up and running again. The pain I felt in my helplessness is not something I would wish on anyone. But it made me contemplate and ponder on the current state of our global consciousness.
You see – when I confided in a relation – the immediate reaction was that “I should put the dog down” if I could not afford the surgery – which I cannot, all truth be told. As with all Light-workers, we are apparently doomed to a future of struggle against big business greed – from basic necessities like food, to caring for ourselves and those close to us – even our pet animals.
This remark reverberated through my being and I felt immediate anger at the sheer disregard for the life of another entity – be it whatever it is.
Some of you know about my intense guilt when I had to kill a wolf spider and her one-thousand off-spring, who chose to hatch in my bathroom. It was unavoidable – as I could not single handedly catch and safely dispose of a thousand-and-one spiders, while the petrified bystanders balanced on cupboards and ladders, horror clearly visible on their faces. Never mind that the spider was harmless – she just looked scary, while trying to protect her brood and herself.
At that moment of guilt – I made friends with the spiders and the other creatures that reside in my environment. Since then I have developed techniques to catch them safely, and dispose of them safely. So I am guilt free, and they can live merrily alongside me, contributing to the bio-sphere in and around my property. That is not all – this apparently had the desired effect. Since peace has been brokered – they do not come into the house anymore. Frogs off course – is another story. They seem to have an affinity for my bedroom, and me, and continue to provide entertainment.
All said and done, I really thought about this last night, and why my life is so filled with little dramas that never seem to end. If the car does not cough and die, the dog gets run over. I thought I was living the compassionate, caring, loving life that all initiates should strive for – helping where I can and doing good where I can – mostly without energy exchange. So, like a real drama queen, in despair I threw my hands into the air and asked “why why why” adding a bit of victim-ness to the mix. I cursed spirit for their apparent war against my efforts, and me, and then went tearfully to bed, trying to devise ways of saving my dog.
Through all of this mayhem the words “just trust, all will be well” kept on ringing in my head. Now trust is something – which a friend told me the other day that must be earned. So I decided – OK God, I will trust, and I will give you the opportunity to earn that trust.
Off course – being me, I could not sleep and further thought about the words my close relative uttered. Hoe can you put down an animal which brings so much joy, gives so much unconditional love, simply because you cannot afford the medical intervention? What kind of consciousness has been bred on this planet that even allows such thinking, that we will even sacrifice a loving animal Soul, simply because we are “practical” and consider the animal dispensable – like a garbage bag thrown asunder on the edge of the pavement pick-up point. I understand that, if the animal’s quality of life is going to be affected, that one may have to consider euthanasia. But certainly that is the last resort?
With that manner of thinking – be it unconscious inheritance from past conditioning or not – where will we all end up? So, in tantrum mode I fell asleep. This morning – I woke up with the same dark thoughts – as is our peculiar human habit, according to master Kuthumi. We always wake up with the previous days problems firmly entrenched in our minds. And he is right, our mental computers seem to open up in the exact program it was in when shut down..
Thank heavens – when conscious of our thoughts and human habits – we can also shut it down.
And then it hit me. Have you asked for assistance from anyone, your support group, friends – even just readers of your columns? Have you considered that there may be others that are on the same path as you – and that may also strive to be compassionate, caring and understanding? Why not try and create a Sagrys fund? Most of them know the loving and compassionate nature of this animal.
And then it hit me again.
Pride versus Gratitude. I am so conditioned in taking care of myself and others – that I do not allow being taken care off. The impulse of self-preservation against all odds have now firmly rooted in my being-ness. Quite simply, I have forgotten to recognize gratitude and acknowledge it as an essential component of Love.
I have also failed to recognize the power of our true spiritual growth, over the past years. The becoming of the true hu-man. And apart from Love – the most essential ingredient here is gratitude. We can have compassion, humilty, understanding, we can forgive easily, but if we do not show gratitude – we are lost. It is the same as not saying “thank you”, or even saying it, but not meaning it.
So, I still have not told you about the little tiff I had last might with someone very close, who will remain un-named. As is now entrenched in me – my response was filled with three elements of the virtues of the heart components – valor, understanding and forgiveness. What is amazing is that this is becoming second nature – I do not have to think about it anymore. The process of re-conditioning is working.
What is even more amazing is that help was offered from this very source – even though a friendship was almost ruined. This is the power of love-energy. And now I understand gratitude – as it flowed over me – for various reasons, like a mantel of Love.
So God, thank you. Your trust has been earned. I will from now on trust – that all things have purpose and all is not always as it seems to be. That Love grows and compassion still exists, and that through honest confrontation the good always flows – if we allow it. As long as we confront the situation – not the person, with care and understanding, the little branch that has broken off will sprout ten new branches and we will have even more beauty and Love to share.
The ladies that work the communal gardens on my property just came to enquire where “wolf” is – because he did not come and greet them this morning. Sagrys is much loved by the community – and therefore my profound gratitude goes out to all that has contributed to my growing – which allowed me to understand and live the philosophy that love is stronger than conflict. Which in turn allowed him to be saved.
Much Love and Light to all
Deon
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