Another day - another Trial

Another day – another trial

Sometimes I just wish the dreams would stop. They are so riddled with aspects of ourselves that constantly want attention – I just do not know where to start making sense of it all.

The process of releasing “that which is no longer appropriate in our lives” (words we hear so often) is really starting to make me feel bombarded by my own Self – hinting all the time at stuff that needs to go – but also remaining inconclusive as to the prompts the Higher Self usually gives me to gain an understanding of “why”. This yo-yo existence is really getting at me – it is as if I cannot find my own style – my own way of being is compromised by my own internal responses. The old bugbear of intellectual rationalization, I suspect, is the culprit.

All said and done – I know that I am not alone in my struggle for self-determination – that we are all going through some type of tumultuous spiritual awakening that tests us on all levels. We seem to have conquered one issue – then another pops up for review. And the same old pattern re-emerges day after day. We actually do not get the time to integrate new awareness’, realizations and decisions. We just get wacked all the time.

Literally – we are being prompted to put the Self on trial. As we review aspects of our past behavior, we become aware of our own lack of impeccability in decision-making, emotional reactions and guilt takes a hold. And maybe it is the ego-self, which creates the problem.

The process of ego-alignment and re-integration in line with our new realizations and awareness’ has another emotional fall-out. Ego-grief. We always fail to understand that the ego also has it’s own internal losses that it has to process.

It also grieves the loss of mechanisms it has put into place to regulate our lives – to keep us balanced and fairly safe as we negotiate planet earth. Suddenly the coping strategies that it has so carefully honed to perfection need to be discarded for another – one that aligns more to our new realizations and conscious behavior changes. In short – the unbalanced ego is making way for another ego-expression – that of alignment with our spiritual renewal. So, it too faces loss, as well as rejection.

As we all know – none of us takes kindly to rejection – especially if it affects our own self-worth, self-love and self-image. Rejection makes us doubt everything that we believe about ourselves, and if severe, also forces us into mourning. So, we experience a double-whammy. We are grieving, even though we do not acknowledge it – as the triad (body/mind/spirit) works through the process of releasing and re-integration.

To top it all – our physical bodies are also changing – becoming lighter and more refined in its vibration. As this process unfolds – we also experience another phenomenon – the opening of the hypothalamus. As it opens more – we become hyper-vigilant to any information or environmental stimulus that forces spiritual change and therefore evolution. Literally – our hearts are opening themselves up to receive more Love Energy. Research indicates that it is the hypothalamus that regulates our religious neurological functioning, as it acts as a receptor for anything spiritual or “within”, like meditation, prayer and active contemplation.

If we follow the teachings of Archangel Metatron – we notice that he talks about the impeccability of Soul Expression. This, I think, is the process that we are currently facing. As we consciously get more clarity about our spiritual purpose – the Soul Expression becomes more linear with our conscious thinking processes.

Going through this cleansing process. as we think – we question the purity and intention of our thoughts, as well as the energetic transfer that is the consequence of that thought. This forces us to become more conscious of our own redundant internal emotional thought mechanisms, and thus forces conflict within.

More and more I am coming to the conclusion that we are facing a rebirth – and have to do a review of our lives so far. So – it is like judgment day for us. Face our past and our past actions. We face our judgmental attitudes and our own self-sabotage. It is the only way that we will get more clarity on our future, and indeed – the quickening spiritual evolution that we face on a Universal scale.

This is not an easy process, as we have to align and make peace with stuff on the level of the collective unconscious as well. As we are all inter-related, on a cellular level, and the fields of consciousness we share – this evolutionary process touches us all. As a result of this – we start to feel like a single consciousness. It is therefore no wonder that our intuitive and telepathic abilities are developing at the speed of light. We kind of “get it” on a global level. We are becoming part of the macro-cosmos, instead of just living in the illusion of a micro-existence.

This creates more problems for us, as we now face the problems of others through energetic transfer. Remember – the mind has the ability to communicate with other minds on a level we still do not understand well enough. So, this transfer of thoughts between minds will have an effect on us individually as well, through unconscious projection. As such – we start being more compassionate and empathic, as we literally feel the pain of others, and pick up their inner thoughts and desires.

This dilemma is difficult to deal with – heaven alone knows, we have enough issues of our own. The only solution is to detach – which makes us feel guilty, if we do not understand that detachment is also empowering. Recognition that detachment, with compassion, can empower others is necessary if we are going to effectively manage our own responses to the new energy.

Compassion – viewed against the backdrop of spiritual evolution and the new energy being seated on the planet – simply means recognizing that others have their life paths to follow, and that we should allow them to make their own choices, and honor their free will. However – detaching also means that we do not get involved in their internal struggles and other emotional needs, unless we choose to do so. And if we choose to do so, then it must be for the empowerment of both parties, and as always – do no harm.

It is not up to us to save those around us, as it is self-realization and self-discovery that creates permanent change and pushes us onwards on the spiritual path. As individuals – we have to own our own changing Self – not others own them for us.

And that is why the process of letting go is seemingly so ruthless.

As our Light Bodies continue to ignite and become more vibrant – it is forcing the shadows out into the open. And this, I think, is why we are suffering such a barrage of back stage entities trying desperately to have their say – they are literally queuing up and causing a major emotional traffic jam in the wings of our personal theatre. They have no place to hide anymore – so, what we resist will simply persist. And part of this last act they will be. Come hell or high water (no pun intended).

So we will have to acknowledge them – and if you do not understand an iota of what they are trying to convey to you – just say thank you for the gift of being in your life for a reason and purpose, forgive the conscious Self and those suffering unconscious Selves for any perceived wrongdoing, and let it go.

Have fun – is all I can say. As our thoughts and reactionary nature is changing from “fight and flight” to “kiss and make up”, consider that our impeccable nature is re-surfacing. Our Hope, Trust and Love hormones are getting stronger, and gaining a foothold over the omnipresent HPA axis and unbalanced ego-responses.

So if your dreams drive you mad – remember that dreams are truly a gift from God. They are releasing and healing mechanisms, controlled by the Monadic aspect of Self. Just allow the dreams to do the work, acknowledge and detach. That is all that is needed.

Much Love and Light to you all

Deon