On being Self-Conscious

I may have mentioned this before – but the other day I told a friend of mine that I want share ideas with him regarding consciousness, and my thoughts now expanded as a result of some deep thinking after a significant “aha” moment, as to what it means to be Self-Conscious.

As we know – consciousness comes in many forms. We can be conscious of a tree, a view. We can be conscious of the leaves rustling in the tree, and the view changing as clouds move, or a thunderstorm builds on the horizon. This is the basic human expression of physical perception (consciousness). Being conscious of something, means that we can perceive through our senses, as they respond to environmental stimuli.

We can feel emotions, which is different from feeling a physical object. We can also sense energy – which is different from sensing movement. So, we can safely postulate that consciousness comes in many expressions, from intuitive feelings (sense), physical observations (sight), which can be static, and then morph into conscious emotional expression – as we watch the beauty of leaves moving in the breeze or pick up on the thoughts of another. All of these are an expression of our conscious responses to our physical and non-physical environment.

The problem with consciousness is that very little of what we experience or do is actually a conscious response. Usually – our consciousness acts on the impulses and prompts of the unconscious. Most of us are not even aware that 95% of our responses are unconscious, as we act on autopilot. As a matter of fact – science, up to the present, have only identified 40 conscious actions, which means our conscious response system consists of a measly little 40-bit processor.

Most of us do not know that our response programming happens between ages zero to six. Human developmental theorists - the most notable of them Erikson and Paiget, have long told us about the ill effects of acting unconsciously towards or around our children, and even others in our environment. The spoken word, or action, without Self-Conscious consideration, can mostly do more harm than good.

The human development phase of “programming” between ages zero and six is essentially spent in a semi-conscious state of hypnosis – also called hypnagogic trance - essentially the same neural state that hypnotists use to download new behaviors into the subconscious mind of clients as part of behavior altering therapy.

“Give me a child until he is seven years old and I will give you the man” is an old Jesuit statement that ultimately tells us that the individual personality is “constructed” during the formative years of children. In essence – the child in the product of conditioning, as the child-mind acts like a sponge that absorbs everything it experiences during these formative years as “truth”.

What is worse – we, the adult caregivers act like self-proclaimed Pavlovians and feed our children and those young ones in our care exactly the same information that has produced us. And so the scourge of genetic mind-state manipulation (transference) continues into the next generation and beyond – simply because we remain unconscious as to the dysfunctions created by our initial programming.

My point is the following: Even in a state of hypnagogic trance – the child is in a state of hypnotic Self-Consciousness. This opens a can of worms for educators and care givers – as what I am trying to impart is that this state of awareness – or Delta/Theta brain state – is when the conscious-unconscious interaction is at it’s most alert level than at any time of our lives.

After this phase of development – we go into autopilot mode. In a sense – the unconscious still does not exist in the Delta brain state. In the Theta brain state – it becomes aware. In the Alpha brain state – it takes over, after programming is complete.

As caregivers – be it in the parenting role, therapist role, teacher role, or even the boss, which is also archetypical role-playing – we need to become more Self-Conscious. Our thoughts must change from being merely reactionary, to impeccable Self-Conscious consideration in all we do and speak.

We are creating the next generation – or affirming the current dysfunctional one, through our actions towards one-another. Let us have a change of heart – reformulate our concept of duty and will, and act Self-Consciously.

Now is the time to embrace the new reality of Metatronic consciousness - the age of impeccability is upon us. This new science of Trans-personal Psychology, combined with the new energy flooding the earth, will persist. It is the new stage of our spiritual evolution.

We can either embrace it - and cause our own resurrection, or we can roll along in utter ignorance and wither away. It is our choice.

Much Love and Light

Another day - another Trial

Another day – another trial

Sometimes I just wish the dreams would stop. They are so riddled with aspects of ourselves that constantly want attention – I just do not know where to start making sense of it all.

The process of releasing “that which is no longer appropriate in our lives” (words we hear so often) is really starting to make me feel bombarded by my own Self – hinting all the time at stuff that needs to go – but also remaining inconclusive as to the prompts the Higher Self usually gives me to gain an understanding of “why”. This yo-yo existence is really getting at me – it is as if I cannot find my own style – my own way of being is compromised by my own internal responses. The old bugbear of intellectual rationalization, I suspect, is the culprit.

All said and done – I know that I am not alone in my struggle for self-determination – that we are all going through some type of tumultuous spiritual awakening that tests us on all levels. We seem to have conquered one issue – then another pops up for review. And the same old pattern re-emerges day after day. We actually do not get the time to integrate new awareness’, realizations and decisions. We just get wacked all the time.

Literally – we are being prompted to put the Self on trial. As we review aspects of our past behavior, we become aware of our own lack of impeccability in decision-making, emotional reactions and guilt takes a hold. And maybe it is the ego-self, which creates the problem.

The process of ego-alignment and re-integration in line with our new realizations and awareness’ has another emotional fall-out. Ego-grief. We always fail to understand that the ego also has it’s own internal losses that it has to process.

It also grieves the loss of mechanisms it has put into place to regulate our lives – to keep us balanced and fairly safe as we negotiate planet earth. Suddenly the coping strategies that it has so carefully honed to perfection need to be discarded for another – one that aligns more to our new realizations and conscious behavior changes. In short – the unbalanced ego is making way for another ego-expression – that of alignment with our spiritual renewal. So, it too faces loss, as well as rejection.

As we all know – none of us takes kindly to rejection – especially if it affects our own self-worth, self-love and self-image. Rejection makes us doubt everything that we believe about ourselves, and if severe, also forces us into mourning. So, we experience a double-whammy. We are grieving, even though we do not acknowledge it – as the triad (body/mind/spirit) works through the process of releasing and re-integration.

To top it all – our physical bodies are also changing – becoming lighter and more refined in its vibration. As this process unfolds – we also experience another phenomenon – the opening of the hypothalamus. As it opens more – we become hyper-vigilant to any information or environmental stimulus that forces spiritual change and therefore evolution. Literally – our hearts are opening themselves up to receive more Love Energy. Research indicates that it is the hypothalamus that regulates our religious neurological functioning, as it acts as a receptor for anything spiritual or “within”, like meditation, prayer and active contemplation.

If we follow the teachings of Archangel Metatron – we notice that he talks about the impeccability of Soul Expression. This, I think, is the process that we are currently facing. As we consciously get more clarity about our spiritual purpose – the Soul Expression becomes more linear with our conscious thinking processes.

Going through this cleansing process. as we think – we question the purity and intention of our thoughts, as well as the energetic transfer that is the consequence of that thought. This forces us to become more conscious of our own redundant internal emotional thought mechanisms, and thus forces conflict within.

More and more I am coming to the conclusion that we are facing a rebirth – and have to do a review of our lives so far. So – it is like judgment day for us. Face our past and our past actions. We face our judgmental attitudes and our own self-sabotage. It is the only way that we will get more clarity on our future, and indeed – the quickening spiritual evolution that we face on a Universal scale.

This is not an easy process, as we have to align and make peace with stuff on the level of the collective unconscious as well. As we are all inter-related, on a cellular level, and the fields of consciousness we share – this evolutionary process touches us all. As a result of this – we start to feel like a single consciousness. It is therefore no wonder that our intuitive and telepathic abilities are developing at the speed of light. We kind of “get it” on a global level. We are becoming part of the macro-cosmos, instead of just living in the illusion of a micro-existence.

This creates more problems for us, as we now face the problems of others through energetic transfer. Remember – the mind has the ability to communicate with other minds on a level we still do not understand well enough. So, this transfer of thoughts between minds will have an effect on us individually as well, through unconscious projection. As such – we start being more compassionate and empathic, as we literally feel the pain of others, and pick up their inner thoughts and desires.

This dilemma is difficult to deal with – heaven alone knows, we have enough issues of our own. The only solution is to detach – which makes us feel guilty, if we do not understand that detachment is also empowering. Recognition that detachment, with compassion, can empower others is necessary if we are going to effectively manage our own responses to the new energy.

Compassion – viewed against the backdrop of spiritual evolution and the new energy being seated on the planet – simply means recognizing that others have their life paths to follow, and that we should allow them to make their own choices, and honor their free will. However – detaching also means that we do not get involved in their internal struggles and other emotional needs, unless we choose to do so. And if we choose to do so, then it must be for the empowerment of both parties, and as always – do no harm.

It is not up to us to save those around us, as it is self-realization and self-discovery that creates permanent change and pushes us onwards on the spiritual path. As individuals – we have to own our own changing Self – not others own them for us.

And that is why the process of letting go is seemingly so ruthless.

As our Light Bodies continue to ignite and become more vibrant – it is forcing the shadows out into the open. And this, I think, is why we are suffering such a barrage of back stage entities trying desperately to have their say – they are literally queuing up and causing a major emotional traffic jam in the wings of our personal theatre. They have no place to hide anymore – so, what we resist will simply persist. And part of this last act they will be. Come hell or high water (no pun intended).

So we will have to acknowledge them – and if you do not understand an iota of what they are trying to convey to you – just say thank you for the gift of being in your life for a reason and purpose, forgive the conscious Self and those suffering unconscious Selves for any perceived wrongdoing, and let it go.

Have fun – is all I can say. As our thoughts and reactionary nature is changing from “fight and flight” to “kiss and make up”, consider that our impeccable nature is re-surfacing. Our Hope, Trust and Love hormones are getting stronger, and gaining a foothold over the omnipresent HPA axis and unbalanced ego-responses.

So if your dreams drive you mad – remember that dreams are truly a gift from God. They are releasing and healing mechanisms, controlled by the Monadic aspect of Self. Just allow the dreams to do the work, acknowledge and detach. That is all that is needed.

Much Love and Light to you all

Deon

On Doubt and Love

On Doubt and Love.

My mother always tells me a little story about an elderly black lady who wished to buy a three legged cooking pot from my grandmother’s rural trading store, many years ago. The pots were chained and locked in order to avoid theft. The elderly lady carefully inspected each pot in turn – and then chose one of her liking. She left, happy with her purchase.

A few hours later though – she arrived back, and demanded to choose another pot. Upon enquiring, she simply told my grandmother “I have my doubts!”. Astonished – my grandmother asked her why she had her doubts about the pot? She could not give a suitable answer – except that she just felt that the pot was not right. My grandmother exchanged it for another similar pot, and the old lady was happy, as the new pot “felt right”.

This little story made me think about the human expression of doubt, and what it means in a more metaphysical sense. The human being – in its vastness of individual emotional expression, has become so encultured as a result of the establishment of Negative Law instead of Kantian Positive law (Groundwork of the Metaphysics of Morals), that it has saturated our thinking and denies us individual expression.

Whatever positives manifest in our lives – we always have to question it. Everything must be justified, analyzed and interrogated. If not for our protection, laws in the main limit our choices of free expression. And I am not talking simply about institutional law – I am talking about the unseen cultural and moral expression of law in our social environment. It is all fear based – on the “what if” and the “what about” issues of societal enculturization.

As human beings – there are five causes for our suffering. According to the Vedas, they are:

• Ignorance about the nature of reality (Ego denial)
• Identification with the ego (Ego power)
• Attraction towards objects of desire (Ego desire)
• Repulsion from objects of desire (Ego protection)
• Fear of death. (Ego fear)

These are the basic negative ego-responses that make us suffer or feel happy – even if only

temporary by nature. The fact is that we constantly fluctuate between these states of mental existence because of fear and doubt. Simply put – we doubt, and then fear the expression of Love. Readers of this column will know that I always emphasize our lack of Love expression. We are all just too insecure to allow Love. We doubt ourselves, and fear our love expression as it is in conflict with our sosio-cultural conditioning.

Ever stood in the shopping mall admiring (desire) that Gucci handbag? Ever stood there rationalizing in your mind why you should not buy it? The object of desire has suddenly become the object of repulsion (aversion), and you turn away from it, thinking rather of the money you can save (avoidance of future pain). We do the same with emotional expression (fear of death or hurt).

In the broader scheme of things, we dis-empower ourselves, those around us, and unconsciously transfer these thought processes onto our children, family and other individuals. The mind is like a transistor radio and is a social instrument – it tunes into other minds on a similar wavelength, and you receive the signal, which is transformed into thoughts through the mechanisms of telepathy or intuition.

Mostly this goes unnoticed, as it is absorbed by the personal unconscious and filed neatly away, to be used as a defense mechanism when it is needed again, i.e.; that handbag is of limits – that cute guy is of limits – Love is of limits.

In other words – “I have my doubts”.

So we trundle along and choose the “safe options” in life – those things that we believe cannot hurt us. It is sad that our safe options are usually not safe options. Safe options out of necessity operate on coping mechanisms. “I would rather go with that”, says the ego, “because I know how to deal with it”. “I will not go with that”, says the ego, “because that is an uncertain option”.

And so we disenfranchise ourselves by limiting our love choices, basing them on doubt and fear, rather than on the felt expression.

Love, the unreachable, unseen part of the Authentic Self, which we deny with vehemence, and rather express as desire.

We become victims of our own insecurities, and we commit emotional suicide. This victim-consciousness is a scourge to ourselves. It is time for us to experience Love, and reject fear and doubt. Resurrect yourself, become that whom you truly are, follow the road of wonder that so amply awaits you. Experience anew the abundance of your being-ness, instead of walking the broadways of the herd. It will not hurt you – love never does. It simply empowers.

That is what I choose.

Much Love and Light

Deon