Energy manifestation – our own creation?

As I was painting a mind-scene today, a beautiful sorghum field outside an imaginary town in the Free State, (well, I remember the scene, but cannot place the location) my thoughts went out to a friend in need. Yes, we plant and we grow stuff. In more ways than we can even imagine.

Listening to a particularly poignant sonata by the composer, Franz Schubert last night, I was compelled to unearth some philosophical scriblings on his music I had written down ten or so years ago, highlighting our empathetic nature, as human beings. I have to admit – that at the time I was suffering the loss of a very good friend, my piano teacher for many years, Laurie Potgieter. If it were not for his unwavering belief in my musical abilities, and his continuing development of my “music empathy” I would not have become a tolerable pianist. Simply put – I was scared of musical emotion.

I had the power on the piano – and also the sensitivity – but I simply could not reconcile the two inputs as a coherent effort. In one moment, I would strike chords like Gina Bachauer on steroids, or I would flounder and produce a too florid rendition of the Moonlight sonata, devoid of any movement or dynamics, as would befit a rookie.

While learning an impromptu by Schubert, Laurie accused me of playing it as if I was fighting with a jackhammer demolishing the piano. “I cannot understand why you show the music no emotional respect”, he said. I understand now, why, but he did not, so his comments were justified, and also not justified. You see – I had a very limited technique. And to make matters worse, which I think contributed to the technique issue, was that I was (am) an ADHD sufferer.

Because of this disability, ADHD sufferers are notoriously ill equipped in the art of patience. We do not have patience, simply because we are insecure about our own abilities. Therefore, we try and get it over with as quickly as possible. Why? Under pressure we flounder, and the mind takes on an energy that we cannot control. Stage fright.

That is why we start things of, and never seem to complete it. It is not that ADHD sufferers lack the ability, and we must distinguish here between the various sub-groups of this disability, but that some sufferers simply do not believe they can pull it off.

You see – this lack of self-confidence is bred from early childhood. As we absorb the information that makes us who we are, we invariably also absorb the projected images of others, and adopt those belief systems. It does not stop in our formative years either, for as we experience and interact, sometimes destructively, we adopt more truths which eventually taints our minds and cause us to live in less than appropriate ways. And think in less than appropriate ways. And here I mean, think bout everything in less than appropriate ways.

Some of us are lucky – in that we develop very good coping mechanisms to the dis-ease, and turn out to be super-successful. Others are not that lucky – as they find themselves (drawn by habit and other sosio-cultural factors) bound to situations and conditions as prescribed by their framework of reference.

I remember where my problem with the piano started. Our next-door neighbor was a music teacher – and I asked my mother (at age six) to please ask if she would teach me. The music teacher refused – as I was not a good candidate – in her words, “he plays by ear, therefore I cannot teach him”. I was devastated. To make matters worse – this rejection of a desire and also of me as a human being, was made worse, as I was sent packing to boarding schools for 10 years, simply because of practical considerations.

This was a double whammy, and those two singular acts (although well intended) set the course of my life, my thoughts, my self worth, self confidence and self value. As a child of six – the trauma is enormous, and the feelings of rejection even worse. It is like a tree being uprooted and planted somewhere else – then uprooted again, and planted in a different location, simply because the landscaping plan changes every year or so.

Do not get me wrong here – as there is no blame intended, as all of this was done with proper intent as to the sustainability of the family unit, as well as the observations of the music teacher. It was her belief that I was un-trainable, and it was my mother’s belief that I would be safer in boarding schools. That was simply the way it was done then, as part of the governments welfare and educational policies.

Yet – where does all of this leave us? How does it influence our personal unconscious, and our behavior patterns? Do we come out of the experiences unscathed, as balanced adults? How does it influence our thinking, our creativity, and our life skills? How do we reconcile our insecurities in a competitive environment? In other words, how do we think unconsciously?

This is scary stuff.

Defense mechanisms taint our life, which becomes chronically adopted, and we become resentful. We can even become entitlement junkies – feeling bullied and so become the bullies ourselves. Or we can fall into victim consciousness and play the role of poor Eliza. We can become extreme narcissists – refusing to accept anything less than the best for ourselves, and do anything to attain those goals. And we can become fearful – developing a lack consciousness that can also have debilitating consequences. The palette of emotional disabilities is endless.

Yet – it is our thought patterns that is the most telling here – and returning to my heading – I wish to make everyone aware of the energy created by thoughts. Everyone that I council these days, comment on the way thoughts manifest – sometimes immediately, but without fail, within a few days or hours. And it affects not only organic thought patterns and objects – in-organic stuff as well.

Our minds are conditioned in certain ways of thinking – as a result of trauma induced by environmental stimuli and experiences. We also relate these mind conditions – to instruments, electronic equipment, cars etc. as we negotiate each day. For instance – you drive of and think about that scratch which is bothering you, and you wish you could fix it. The thought creates a potentiality, and bingo! Someone drives into you, and the fender bender is located at exactly the scratch that bothered you.

Or, your DVD player is not functioning, and you wish you could replace the bloody thing. Next day they break into your house and steal just that item. I had the experience when my car overheated – and since then, I am fearful of the car I am driving overheating. Guess what happens? They all overheat. It is either the thermostat, or water pump or some arbitrary something that malfunctions.

Take animals – I have a fear of my dogs being run over, since I ran over Destiny – about eight months ago. Since then the fear has grown to the extreme of over-protection. Guess what – another one gets run over, by my neighbor. I have lost three computer hard-drives in three months – and why? Because I have developed a fear of my computers crashing, since the first time it did last year.

So – my point is that giving energy to potential problems will manifest them. Where the attention goes – the energy goes – even if unconscious in its origin. Think about a person these days – and they contact you. We link mind power with objects and people – and this is our new quantum reality. As we move deeper into 4^th density – we connect on levels that was previously not possible.

We even harbor new electromagnetic powers – as our cellular structure is changing into crystalline/silica composition, the peizo-electrical nature of our bodies is changing. As the crystalline structure stresses – immense energy is released, sometimes blowing light bulbs, hard-drives, amplifiers and the like.

In order to force change in our thinking – the powers that is will cause strange things to happen. Like – your vacuum cleaner suddenly coming to life? What is it that you need to “suck up” and discard? Your printer malfunctioning? What is it that you want to print? Maybe look at it again? Or – my personal favorite – outlook express suddenly hangs…freezes, just as you want to send that e-mail. Control-alt-delete, and it is gone. Lets start over – and then more clarity comes into being, and you write with proper intent and cut out the crap.

So, as Metatron says – impeccability of thought. No wonder they make such an issue of it, the Ascended Masters and all those on high. I can see the lesson here.

We are so conditioned, and project our fears and ego-needs (yes, it is all fear based) to such an extent that it impacts our lives on all fronts. You think something like “I have to be careful here”, and it manifests.

So – please do not swear at your car, fear for the life of your dog or cat, fear the love that is being offered, fear the power of others, be scared of ghosties and goalies, say no to help, and generally create unnecessary thought patterns that can impact your physical existence.

We live in new, exciting times. Things are not what they used to be. So, discard the old isms and ego-behaviors and create anew. I know – I am a fine one to talk. But we can try and give it our attention, by becoming self-conscious of our thoughts and actions. Not even a “cancel, cancel, cancel” is going to help anymore. We have to avoid the potential.

And that is quite a task.

Much Love and Light.

On falsity and clones – the anatomy of the Ego-cult.

Ok. A close friend and me have been exploring the concept of psychopathy and narcissism as we have both had experiences with these individuals – which left emotional scars, still plaguing both of us to this day.

I have – by virtue of my trade, a good basic knowledge of psychopathy, but it must also be said that I do not necessarily recognize one when I encounter one. This is simply because the really vindictive one’s are a rarity in society, and so well masked behind a façade of “normality” that you often only realize their true psychological identity once you have been successfully manipulated into their web of lies and deceit.

What is more – many of these individuals have so successfully integrated into society – that their camouflage have now molded around them – causing them to appear normal, with some common personality traits that we can all identify with. This is scary, because we interact with people like this almost every day.

Because of their generally conducive and amiable facades, most of us will fall for the charms of the narcissist and psychopath. They are outgoing, display a keen interest in you, make you feel fabulous, listen and respond well, and soon they have you snared. Welcome to hell. As soon as you are snared – they start stripping you of all identity, self worth and self-control. Then desperation sets in – you want out.

Unfortunately for the victim – this is easier said than done – as the psychopath and narcissist does not relinquish control easily. They ease up to make you feel safe again – just to launch the following attack. These attacks are mostly emotional blackmail – with the explicit intent of breaking you down into nothingness in order to exercise more control over you, your resources (money, sex, social acceptance and manipulation) and their own self-esteem and needs.

A study published in 2010 (Joshua W. Buckholtz, BS. Vanderbilt University, Tennessee) suggests that the feel-good hormone, dopamine, is released into the nucleus accumbens (a sector of the brain regulating gratification) when a psychopath or narcissist identifies a target. Almost like being a junky – they become addicted to dopamine, and therefore have a reward system in place for their malicious escapades.

This makes them dangerous, as the behavior is adopted chronically, especially if you consider that the psychopath has stopped developing emotionally since age three. Lack of emotion implies lack of empathy and compassion, and a disregard for social norms, rules and laws. And this is certainly true in psychopaths as well as narcissists. They are soul-less creatures, and doing harm is their trade.

However, as I continue to delve into the psyche of these individuals, my thoughts keep on going back to the horrors of cult-consciousness – and the comparison I inevitably draw is that – on the micro-cosmic scale of existence we are all little cults – personalized, yes, but little self-serving cults anyway.

But a little more about cult leaders.

Cult leaders have as their ultimate aim dominance over a group – their laws and beliefs will be respected and not questioned. Charming, enigmatic and docile as they may appear – they have hearts of ice. In essence – they limit our personal choices and thoughts, and rule our belief systems. It is all about “thou shalt” – their own personal gains (money, adoration, self-aggrandization) becomes their god (yours to) and that becomes their own dopamine saturated gratification system. Examples of these individuals abound.

Dogmatic adherence to the cult’s rules, belief systems, monetary policies (tithing) is demanded – and further manipulation is to be expected to extort as much as possible from it’s members. That – in essence, is the mind of the cult leader. They create a pseudo-religious movement – cultivate members and then extract maximum benefit. Period.

This is particularly true of new age movements – let’s get you hooked, devise a good self-help programme, under the guise of “the guru”, and extract as much financial gain as we can, while boosting your ego and telling you that you can do it all alone. Just buy my books, cassettes, CD’s and you are a winner. Gullible as we are – we lap it all up, and we again just blindly (and with much enthusiasm) jump into the deep-end and eventually flounder, sink and drown in our own remorse. Another one down. The secret is still “A Secret”.

As a good friend said the other day – “to think that we share a holographic universe with people like that”. Well, it gets worse, and I am now going to raise a few eyebrows.

Being the thinking, analytical type, my mind raced as I suddenly HAD to confront the issue of psychopathy, narcissism and other co-morbid related personality disorders. When confronting these behaviors, inevitably one psychologizes one-self and compare. Oh my gawwd – am I like this? What – I think I may have done that before? Oh yes – I can recognize myself here….and so we batter the Self into thinking the unthinkable. In two weeks flat – you firmly believe that you have at least a zillion psychopathic tendencies.

And we have all done that. Self- psychologizing is a dangerous pass-time. When confronting one-self, rational thinking flees the mind-coup – simply because we cannot detach (like a psychiatrist or therapist can) from our own inner feelings, and therefore have a very skewed view of reality. We cannot expect to have the knowledge (or detach sufficiently) to be able to be discerning in evaluating our own inner psyche.

This is especially true of ADD/ADHD sufferers – who very often, after you tell them what they are suffering from – exclaim, “Thank God I am not mad after all?” And you say “no, you are not”, and explain the physiological workings of the dis-ease.

The same applies to Asperger syndrome sufferers – who simply have an inability to identify with their emotions – yet can feel and experience intense love, empathy and compassion. AS’rs feel rather, on a macrocosmic scale – as though they feel the emotions of the whole world. So they have difficulty zoning in on the object/person that causes the feelings.

Personally I feel that AS’rs are first-timers on earth – maybe even in a lower density, as they feel the collective, rather than the individual emotion. This causes their thalamus to go into open-faucet mode, making them “allergic” to too much environmental input, and thus they fall into autistic behavior. They also have a tendency to concentrate on one subject – much like they have a certain honed talent, and become extremely successful in their endeavors. In more advanced societies – nurturing of talents in service of, or for the good of the community is common practice when educating children.

So when the self-psychologizing bug bites you – think again. And I will tell you why. Human beings have an ego. As we will know by now – we get born with an empty undeveloped ego, and it develops as we go along, based on the environmental stimuli that we are confronted with. We also know that our brain will absorb everything we experience between ages zero and six – as truth and store it in the personal unconscious as markers of good and bad, causing us to react in certain ways when confronted with a similar stimulus.

The ego – being a sort of referee between the ID and super-ego, will then mediate appropriate responses – based on our personal memory banks. In it’s efforts – the ego will then enact these responses, simply by instructing our body and emotions – without our approval or prior knowledge. We are given no choice in the matter – and when we become aware of this unconscious interaction, our ego devises strategies to counter our awareness.

Simply put – we live in a personal ego-cult. The ego is very happy with it’s achievements, and therefore will do anything to disallow conscious thinking in it’s captive. Yes, the unbalanced ego can be that bad. Mainly – it thinks that it does good – and gets a kick out of steering us towards it’s own reward system. It’s dopamine flows uninhibited.

Please do not think that I am saying that the ego is all bad – for it is not. The balanced ego can protect us from much harm and ensure a balanced passage on planet earth. But the unbalanced ego – on the other hand, can be destructive.

When we lack self-worth, self-esteem, self- love and self –value – the ego will go out of it’s way to provide same – and it does not matter how it does it. As long as it attains it by any means – it is happy. The problem is – the unbalanced ego has been bred by physical and emotional abuse. Therefore – we are dealing with consequence. The consequence is dysfunctional adopted behavior patterns, which tends to dominate our lives. And these – in turn, were inherited.

We adapt to circumstances as they present themselves, through observation and interaction. The bullied person often becomes the lying persona, simply as it is trying to prevent further bullying and confrontation. This will then manifest as a behavior pattern in all his/her personal interactions. But because he is a lying so and so does not make this person a psychopath. Or a narcissist for that matter. It is a consequence of conditioning.

And who do we blame? Actually – no-one. Those who programmed us – simply acted out their own programs. Our mothers and fathers were also prone to their own conditioning, and so also others that we interacted with socially. We simply responded to their conditioned behavior – physical and emotional.

The unconscious (both personal and collective) is nothing less than a cult in marvelous full blown swing. It rules our lives, forces us to behave in certain ways, and leave us without really conscious choices – as it rules through the unseen mechanisms of our psyche. It is – and we are, therefore, simply unconscious. It acts on programmed responses, informed mostly by false truths, and leaves us floundering in a maelstrom of inner turmoil.

So – as we enter the period of solstice, have compassion with yourself. Don’t blame the self. Don’t blame others. Forgive the self. And forgive others – for we are merely products of society. We are clones bred to simulate others. And who wants to be a clone?

It is time for us to discard the personal ego-cult – and align ourselves to conscious awareness of what it is and what it is capable of. Eventually – through conditioning, the ego will have no choice but to comply with our new being-ness, and become more balanced in it’s responses, mirroring the new us.

So when you next practice the “art” of self-psychologizing – remember that you are dealing with your own personal built-in cult consciousness – even though it is mainly an unconscious one. Thank it consciously for it’s input – but also make it aware that it’s intrusions on your own authentic self is at an end. And that consequence can call it a day.

The new spiritual imperative also has relevance to the ego. It has to align to this new paradigm, and let go of its dogmatic behavior.

Only you can do it, and I, for one, refuse to be part of its control systems anymore.

Much Love and Light

Great Expectations – and how we create them

After another barrage of strange dreams last night, I have been prompted by those on nigh to write about creation – our own version of it, that is, and how it adversely affects our lives, through assumption, guilt, blame and other negative emotions.

According to the new-ish science of epigenetics, we create, through interaction with our environment, a cellular and genetic process of creation and re-creation. That is – we respond to certain environmental stimuli, which we either accept as false or true, and incorporate it into our physical and mental belief systems. The cells respond, by adopting this as truth, embedding it into our cellular memory system, and adapting our thought patterns and responses accordingly.

Only when “truth” has been accepted – can the cellular community respond with certainty – i.e. – if our belief is strong and firmly entrenched – we can then manifest the belief as a physical and mental reality.

That – unfortunately, is where it gets stopped – right in its tracks. The Ascended Masters tells us all the time – it is only a potentiality, and that potentiality can also be ruined by another potentiality. In other words – here we have to do with a cauldron of ingredients which either work as intended – or implode/explode simply because the ingredients are not coherent enough to manifest in our desire.

In fairness – we have to draw the line somewhere, between spirituality and physicality. If we accept that Universal Laws will guarantee an outcome – we must also accept, reluctantly, that outcomes are based on potentiality, and how other people react to our desires.

This creates the first problem – as we cannot rely on others to follow our truths, or our desires, as it may be in conflict with theirs. So, outcomes cannot be necessarily be guaranteed, but how we respond to them, can, based on our individual belief systems and emotional resilience.

If we look at Kantian philosophy – we see that he draws a clear distinction between good and bad – and further defines that good is always coherent with Universal Law. That is – will it have a good or bad outcome for macrocosmic potentiality? Will all benefit from the outcome, generated by protagonistic potentialities?

This – I think, is what the Ascended Masters try so desperately to imprint in our minds – impeccability of thought.

However – impeccability of thought is an individual thing. Never mind how impeccable our thoughts, it still has the potentiality to conflict with not so impeccable other thoughts, both our own and that of others. And that is where things go seriously belly-up. In philosophy – we can argue about pain – what is it, how does it manifest, how does it make us feel. Is it physical, mental, universal, collective, individual and so on? All of the above is true – but have the potential to vary in truth and probability according to individual viewpoints and belief systems.

But I am rambling on in my usual way. What is it that we actually create for ourselves – I had to ask myself?

Well – if we focus on impeccability of thought – personally and spiritually we can only create good – given that our impeccability is focused and does not waver in its intention and belief. And that is what makes the human being such an interesting species.

Our Creator imbued us with a limitless emotional expression module (call it a processor). This processor – like any computer, has to interact with an operating system, and as we all know, the viruses that can infect the information programmed into our computer, can also destroy it.

A virus embeds itself into your computer system, via a malicious download from another computer, email or Internet site. This then infects the integrity of your operating system – and you can suffer severe damage – losing all your data, crashing your hard drive, corrupting your system, and so on. The net result? You have to start all over again, reprogram your computer, and re-load your settings and so forth.

So – let us look at ourselves as a computer. We work, write, send emails, expressing how we feel, giving information to others, and create an electronic environment that possess’ consciousness. It is our thoughts – it adapts and integrates our information, we download other programs onto the hard drive – expressing our needs. The computer becomes an instrument mirroring us, our truths (and sometimes untruths), and what makes us tick.

So what happens when it crashes? The ensuing tirade, as I know you will agree, is not funny. A perfect example of “oh woe is me!”. Our world is in tatters; we have lost communication (or is it control?) with the rest of the personal environment, and all comes to a staggering halt.

Ditto-human emotions. Through not so impeccable thoughts – we become guilty of our own sins, actions, and create consequence. Ever promised something and then not keep that promise? Made an agreement and then not keep it? I am certainly guilty of it – as I think we all are.

It all boils down to how impeccable our thoughts are versus our actions. And I am in no way implying that things do not change – as we live in a fluid, dynamic universe and reality. It is how we manage change that is my bugbear.

Instead of synchronizing with our dynamic, fluid environment, we instead focus on the negative, and viola! Our impeccability has just been relegated to the nether regions of our existence.

In human terms – when things go belly up – we blame, curse, doubt, and loose our emotional marbles. We react personally, against the assumed protagonists, instead of reacting to the situation. In that act alone – we create further potentialities for strive and mayhem. In this emotional blind-state – we crawl around on the floor searching for our marbles, and never seem to find. Hello, fight or flight mode.

I always say that our first intention when we create an agreement is always pure and filled with integrity. That is what we want to do, and no strange thought will fill our mind that can negate the original intent. Yet – as things go along, and we are in the process of enacting the agreement – potentialities change, things go wrong, and as such we either manage them, coherently – or we attack one another.

That is the human being slumbering in duality.

Conscious creation has rules and laws. I do not for one minute think that God created this universe, without managing it, and subjecting it to Natural Laws. Laws, that compliments one-another instead of fighting against one-another. These laws do not blame, hate, scream and throw tantrums. They adapt to their fluid environment, working together to create potentiality for expansion and growth.

Do we do it? No – instead we blame others for our unfortunate experiences, we project our own isms and sins onto others, and effectively transfer blame in order to make ourselves feel better, and hide our sins under the rug. This is mostly an unconscious response – but sometimes, it is also conscious. And that is the crux.

As we evolve spiritually and emotionally and become more conscious – we are going to be held responsible. Being conscious of something means that you are aware of something - and being aware means that you are cognizant. Being cognizant implies awareness of consequence – and if we are aware of consequence – surely we can try and make consequential outcomes beneficial instead of destructive?

It is time for us to face up to our new responsibilities – and breed new thought patterns, as our own great expectations does not match up anymore with our vibrational essence. Creating discord in our emotional bodies as a result of sticking to old thought patterns and dogmas – is not going to help us one iota. We live in a new, fluid, constantly changing reality. Things are not what they used to be – and we create almost instantly.

So buckle up – and go with the new flow of super-consciousness-in-creation-ability.

Be impeccable. Think clearly. Interrogate your own reasoning. And make sure that whatever you think – is filled with your own conscious truth and not ego-centered virus’ that can infect your system.

When you do that – you practice the energy of Love. For Love in it’s pure form is always good, and has the energies of Hope and Trust firmly imbedded in it’s programme.

So, go ahead and reprogram your system, to express the new energies that are now available to all of us. Think before you speak, because what you speak and think, you WILL create.

Much Love and Light

Pride versus Gratitude

Yesterday, I had the unfortunate experience of having my loving dog Sagrys run over by a car. He is alive and well, for which I am grateful, but it will take surgery to get him up and running again. The pain I felt in my helplessness is not something I would wish on anyone. But it made me contemplate and ponder on the current state of our global consciousness.

You see – when I confided in a relation – the immediate reaction was that “I should put the dog down” if I could not afford the surgery – which I cannot, all truth be told. As with all Light-workers, we are apparently doomed to a future of struggle against big business greed – from basic necessities like food, to caring for ourselves and those close to us – even our pet animals.

This remark reverberated through my being and I felt immediate anger at the sheer disregard for the life of another entity – be it whatever it is.

Some of you know about my intense guilt when I had to kill a wolf spider and her one-thousand off-spring, who chose to hatch in my bathroom. It was unavoidable – as I could not single handedly catch and safely dispose of a thousand-and-one spiders, while the petrified bystanders balanced on cupboards and ladders, horror clearly visible on their faces. Never mind that the spider was harmless – she just looked scary, while trying to protect her brood and herself.

At that moment of guilt – I made friends with the spiders and the other creatures that reside in my environment. Since then I have developed techniques to catch them safely, and dispose of them safely. So I am guilt free, and they can live merrily alongside me, contributing to the bio-sphere in and around my property. That is not all – this apparently had the desired effect. Since peace has been brokered – they do not come into the house anymore. Frogs off course – is another story. They seem to have an affinity for my bedroom, and me, and continue to provide entertainment.

All said and done, I really thought about this last night, and why my life is so filled with little dramas that never seem to end. If the car does not cough and die, the dog gets run over. I thought I was living the compassionate, caring, loving life that all initiates should strive for – helping where I can and doing good where I can – mostly without energy exchange. So, like a real drama queen, in despair I threw my hands into the air and asked “why why why” adding a bit of victim-ness to the mix. I cursed spirit for their apparent war against my efforts, and me, and then went tearfully to bed, trying to devise ways of saving my dog.

Through all of this mayhem the words “just trust, all will be well” kept on ringing in my head. Now trust is something – which a friend told me the other day that must be earned. So I decided – OK God, I will trust, and I will give you the opportunity to earn that trust.

Off course – being me, I could not sleep and further thought about the words my close relative uttered. Hoe can you put down an animal which brings so much joy, gives so much unconditional love, simply because you cannot afford the medical intervention? What kind of consciousness has been bred on this planet that even allows such thinking, that we will even sacrifice a loving animal Soul, simply because we are “practical” and consider the animal dispensable – like a garbage bag thrown asunder on the edge of the pavement pick-up point. I understand that, if the animal’s quality of life is going to be affected, that one may have to consider euthanasia. But certainly that is the last resort?

With that manner of thinking – be it unconscious inheritance from past conditioning or not – where will we all end up? So, in tantrum mode I fell asleep. This morning – I woke up with the same dark thoughts – as is our peculiar human habit, according to master Kuthumi. We always wake up with the previous days problems firmly entrenched in our minds. And he is right, our mental computers seem to open up in the exact program it was in when shut down..

Thank heavens – when conscious of our thoughts and human habits – we can also shut it down.

And then it hit me. Have you asked for assistance from anyone, your support group, friends – even just readers of your columns? Have you considered that there may be others that are on the same path as you – and that may also strive to be compassionate, caring and understanding? Why not try and create a Sagrys fund? Most of them know the loving and compassionate nature of this animal.

And then it hit me again.

Pride versus Gratitude. I am so conditioned in taking care of myself and others – that I do not allow being taken care off. The impulse of self-preservation against all odds have now firmly rooted in my being-ness. Quite simply, I have forgotten to recognize gratitude and acknowledge it as an essential component of Love.

I have also failed to recognize the power of our true spiritual growth, over the past years. The becoming of the true hu-man. And apart from Love – the most essential ingredient here is gratitude. We can have compassion, humilty, understanding, we can forgive easily, but if we do not show gratitude – we are lost. It is the same as not saying “thank you”, or even saying it, but not meaning it.

So, I still have not told you about the little tiff I had last might with someone very close, who will remain un-named. As is now entrenched in me – my response was filled with three elements of the virtues of the heart components – valor, understanding and forgiveness. What is amazing is that this is becoming second nature – I do not have to think about it anymore. The process of re-conditioning is working.

What is even more amazing is that help was offered from this very source – even though a friendship was almost ruined. This is the power of love-energy. And now I understand gratitude – as it flowed over me – for various reasons, like a mantel of Love.

So God, thank you. Your trust has been earned. I will from now on trust – that all things have purpose and all is not always as it seems to be. That Love grows and compassion still exists, and that through honest confrontation the good always flows – if we allow it. As long as we confront the situation – not the person, with care and understanding, the little branch that has broken off will sprout ten new branches and we will have even more beauty and Love to share.

The ladies that work the communal gardens on my property just came to enquire where “wolf” is – because he did not come and greet them this morning. Sagrys is much loved by the community – and therefore my profound gratitude goes out to all that has contributed to my growing – which allowed me to understand and live the philosophy that love is stronger than conflict. Which in turn allowed him to be saved.

Much Love and Light to all

Deon